I’ve been running around for a week or so. Lots of things to be done and very little time to do them.  

My hamster seems to be doing OK. I mean, she’s still alive. She eats and runs around, so that’s great considering tomorrow she has surgery planned. Even the vet told me that it would be much cheaper to get a new hamster, but as long as Martinica eats and is as lively as ever I won’t put her down. She doesn’t seem to be in any pain from the lump so why not give her the chance to live for another couple of months?

Truthfully, I doubt I will get another pet after Martinica.

Besides worrying about my little furry friend, I have to worry about the upcoming wedding we have to attend (we = me and Johnny). The wedding is happening in less than two weeks and we are not prepared at all. Johnny’s suit needs cleaning and Johnny needs a new shirt. I don’t have anything to wear (no dress, no shoes, nothing planned at all). Did I mentioned I need to color my hair and get a haircut?

Oh and the next weekend we’re going to the mountain side, and during the week we’re going to visit some relatives of Johnny from Moldova.

I doubt the fact that I will get everything done.

P.S.: With all the running around I still noticed that Autumn is here and that is just awesome. Hopefully I will take beautiful pictures of the Moldavian landscape.

  But I realized I can’t be happy when I’m tired.

 I have so many reasons to be happy.  

• In less than two weeks Johnny is coming home.
• Yesterday I applied for the IELTS test at British Council here in Bucharest. This is something I’ve wanted to do for years but never got the chance.
• Supernova, one of my favorite boy bands is releasing a new single. I really like them a lot.
• I’m almost half way to finish my third gobelin (not my cat gobelin but my tulips gobelin).
• I got money in my pocket.
• I am in my new office which is all cleaned and nice, plus it’s quiet and very relaxing.
• Even if it’s hot outside, I know autumn is just around the corner.
•  The annoying co-worker is on a 2 week vacation. I consider it as my own personal vacation … from her.

 And, everything is falling into place really nice and there’s nothing going wrong right now.

 I’m in a happy spot, but I can’t enjoy because I’m tired. Yesterday I should’ve been jumping for joy after I registered for the IELTS test (which is on 25 September). But I was gloomy, I was tired and I was so hot (from the heat okay) that I just wanted to get home and take a shower.

 Being tired sucks.

• Why is it that whenever I am dressed nicely for work there’s always cleaning to be done, or stuff to be moved around?
• Why does all the hard work have to be on Friday?
• Why do I always get dragged into everything?
• Am I the “multitasking employee” of the year?

I am thinking of bringing spare clothes to change at the office and maybe some comfortable shoes. This way I won’t get all my good clothes all dirty and my feet won’t hurt as much at the end of each day.

I should take every Friday off; a three day weekend sounds good to me. It will actually be a dream come true, but reality is always oh so painful.

Hopefully with the new change of office I won’t be as solicited as I am now.  I am thinking that with the new people here I will get some “free” time to do my own work. In the end, I keep telling myself that it’s all worth it. I hope that I am right and that I’m not wasting all my energy for nothing.

For now I just want to go home and get some rest, but there are a lot of things to be done before going home. One of them is getting my eyes checked and to fix my glasses. Hopefully I won’t be so drained and I will go visit the “in-laws” but I’m not promising anything.

Ahh, the weekend seems so close yet it’s so far away.

I’m on a roll!!!

I never finish things. But now, not only did I finished and framed my dog gobelin, but I already started my cat gobelin. And that means a lot to me, because I’m such a lazy person (in general).

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It also may not seem much to others, but working in needlepoint really takes a lot of patience and determination to actually finish. And those are really two things that I lack.

I’m so proud of myself. I’m allowed to say that, because it’s been a while since I’ve been productive. Usually, the only environment in which I’m productive is at work and there only if I’m left alone (with no interference from others).

I also noticed one thing: I’m very cheap with myself (with buying clothes or things that some see as a “must”) but I spend a lot of money on things that some find trivial (like my hobbies and manga’s).

I noticed this yesterday, when I went shopping with my friend.

I usually avoid going to the Mall or other shops which I know are expensive (from my point of view) but I said what the heck, it was pay day after all. And there I was, sitting with the pair of jeans on me thinking if I should buy them or not.

I was very reluctant to spend 30$ on a pair of jeans! 30 bucks, that’s cheap and I am a jeans person, plus the jeans looked good on me.

 Then I thought it over: I spent in the last 3 months around 150$ on gobelins and here I am fretting about 30$ for a pair of jeans which I will get to use almost every week.

So I made a resolution: I won’t buy anymore needlepoint kits till I finish the ones I have at home, and I will buy myself a decent pair of sneakers (hopefully I won’t cry if I scratch them).

Have you noticed that no matter how much we advance as a race we still end up fighting?

When I used to grow up, I was oblivious to what was going on around me.

• I didn’t know that there were still wars out there.
• I didn’t know that people were suffering.
• I didn’t know about politics.
• I didn’t know about money.
• I didn’t know anything about what the real world.

I was 14 years old when the world around me started changing. On 11 September 2001, I was preparing to go out and play, when my parents called me to the living room. They were watching TV and they were upset.

They were showing the Twin Towers going down.

I still remember what I said: “Cool movie!” and then I went out to play and hang with my friends. When I got home, my parents told me that it wasn’t a movie and that it was really happening in real life.

My stupid brain didn’t get it then. “Okay it happened but what does it got to do with me?” was my thought.

You see, I was so used to seeing movies with people getting killed, wars, dramas and so on, that when it happen in real life it didn’t even occur to me that I should probably feel (at least) sad.

Now, after 9 years, I am very much aware of things that are happening around me. And my conclusion from my short life: As the most intelligent race on this planet we sure are a bunch of morons.

I doubt there was ever a moment of peace in the history of human kind. It seems we get a kick from starting wars from any reason.

It’s sad.

You know, everything that we do in our lives has a direct link with what happens around us. But, when the outcome isn’t the one we expect it to be, we go berserk and put the blame on others. And, everything else starts from there.

And, it’s in moments like this that I remember a short novel that I read in primary school. I don’t remember who wrote or what it is called I just remember the content (it was really long ago).

It’s about a Supreme Being that keeps records with the advancement of all the species in the universe. And one day, his loyal friend comes over and tells him that the human have already discovered the atomic energy. The Supreme Being is really happy and opens a special book where he keeps records of the most intelligent species. While he writes the name of the humans, he asks his friend: “On what planet did the humans test the atomic energy?” At which his friend replies: “On their own planet”.

At this stage, the Supreme Being just looks blankly at his friends and with his pen traces a line over the humans name saying: “It’s such a shame”.

The humans were the only ones in the Supreme Being special notebook being erased.

So, my question is: “What’s the use of evolving and consider ourselves the most intelligent beings on this planet if all that we can do is enslave ourselves?”