This was one of the coldest autumns that I can remember. It felt more like winter rather than autumn. It was and still is bloody cold; it rained most of the September and October and the thought of walking the dog was just depressing.
In fact many things have been depressing these past couple of months (I dare say this past year). I can’t wait for the year to be over so we can start all over again.
Yes, I am one of those people that believes that the New Year brings new opportunities and chances. I don’t know exactly why, but I do. I just like the feeling of knowing that you can start all over with a clean slate.
To leave everything behind and to start out again afresh. That is music to my ears.
I am fully aware that I’ve missed the mark on most of my 2015 resolutions. But no one can tell me that I didn’t try my hardest. The first few months of the year I gave everything I had in order to find a better job. I went to God knows how many interviews and not one was fruitful. I felt like I was not good enough even for the most basic secretarial job. I felt useless and defeated.
But, I got back on track and I’ve learned from my mistakes. I’ve learned not to take to heart everything and to move on. The moment you stop, everything catches up to you and it’s just dreadful.
I’ve also learned that there is nothing wrong in asking for your old job. Sure, I’ve faced many people that were shocked that I’ve done such a thing. Lets put it this way, I needed money therefor I needed a job. In fact, that was one of the moments that I was proud of myself! It takes guts to do such a thing and I don’t regret it one bit!
I was able to hold my ground and bring in money to help support my family (albeit it is just me, John and the two furry pets). I am even more proud that I was able to last 5-6 months (and still going strong) on the night shift. Working during the night and taking care of the house and pets during the day takes out a lot from you.
I haven’t had any other progress if I think about it. No other personal objective was reached nor shall it be reached till the end of the year. But, I’m fine with that. It doesn’t mean that I didn’t try.
Will I make new resolutions for 2016?
Wow, I’m talking about resolutions while it’s still autumn and still 2 more months to go till the end of the year. At first, I wasn’t sure. After all, I never do finish them. Yet, this year I actually fought for them and that felt pretty darn good. Things might not always go as planned, but it’s a good thing to have a general direction on how you would like them to go.
This Autumn might be depressing, but it’s also beautiful. I’ve had time to reflect on everything that happened. Things aren’t always as bad as we make them. There are 2 more months of 2015, 1 more month of autumn and I am content that I’ve tried.