Sorting out my mail, music, photos and my life. And yet, our room is still messy, I’m still lazy and I still don’t have things up to date.
Still, I’ve taken more photos, played more with the photography apps on my phone, I’ve went out with friends and with Johnny, and just took things easy. I am feeling much better than I was a week before.
I do believe the nice weather we’ve been having lately has improved my morale. Also, Marlanu’ has helped a lot. He’s been more affectionate lately and I do love what a good subject he is when it comes to random photography.
With no chance of the Wonder Girls making a comeback anytime soon, I guess I should be grateful for solo activities. Sunmi just made her comeback with a new album “24 Hours”. Her comeback song “Full Moon”.
For the first time I like a song more than I like the video. It’s very different from her last song, but it’s still as good as “24 Hours”. I also like the fact they kept the barefoot thing. Somehow, I find that Sunmi voice changed from her Wonder Girls days. I guess that has something to do with the change in her singing style.
Since the beginning of the year I felt like an old lady. I don’t think my mind left anything untouched. I’ve been worrying about turning 27 this year and the fact that I’ve done absolutely nothing worthy with my life. I just freaked out! 3 more years and I will be 30. Where did the years go?
The voice in my mind went crazy and just won’t stop. I can’t make it stop. This voice keeps pointing out all my flaws and makes me feel like I am the worst of them all. I don’t know if this is really because I’m just acting silly for getting older, or because I miss the sunny days of spring and summer, or that I really am such a bad person.
I really wish I would stop the whole “comparing myself with others” thing. But I just can’t stop. I really hate the women that at 6 AM are out looking picture perfect with their make up applied perfectly and dressed to impressed, with no mud stains on their shoes while I look like I just crawled out of bed with pillow marks on my face and my boots dirty from walking 10 minutes in the muddy snow till the subway. How do they do it? Why do they do it? Does it matter so much? Why do I care so much about this? Why do I suddenly want to wear skirts and dresses to work? Why do I want to have perfect skin and a body to kill for? Why do I have to be picture perfect?
Why the urgent need to change?
I really hope spring will come sooner because I need more sunshine and more walks in the park to clear my mind from all of the negative thoughts I have.
This cat has more pictures than I have, and he’s only 2 years old. I don’t even think my kids will have so many pictures. Heck, I think I’m over compensating for the fact I don’t have any picture of Snoopy (the dog we had to give away). But I can’t help it, he’s my fuzzball.
Sometimes I think I should expand my kpop list of artists. I’ve recently started randomly browsing YouTube for music and of course I got stuck on kpop. Somehow, I avoided Girls Generation, Wonder Girls, T-ara and any other group that I’m already familiar with.
I ended up with Sistar, Secret, K-Will, Nine Muses and other groups. Kpop is much bigger than I thought and there are a lot of underrated artists that have awesome songs.
Sometimes I miss my old office with my personal computer, where I could play the music I like and just do things at my own pace.
But the thing I miss most is the fact I didn’t work with people.
After a year and a half working in customer service I’ve realized that it doesn’t matter what country you live in, what language you speak or what color your skin is. A**holes are everywhere!
Sometimes when I’m on the phone I don’t know if I should laugh or cry. It’s mindblowing to see how horrible some people would treat you for the slightest inconveniences.
Working with people is not for everyone. You don’t need people skills. You need nerves of steel and the ability to brush things off. I’ve seen bright people change in a matter of weeks. Yet the people who are the most insensitive and fake have no problem handling 8 hours a day, 5 days a week working in customer service.
But there’s a bright side as well. Yes, there is such a thing in customer service! I love my colleagues that try to make my day better. I love the people that call and just share a laugh with you, treat you nice or are patient when it takes a bit longer. I’ve also learned how to handle stressful situations, to be patient with people and just take things as they are without stressing over them.
I do believe this will help me later in life. I’ve come a long way from my anti-social days locked up in a tiny office.
The only reason I am still working in customer service is the need to finish university. If it weren’t for that stupid diploma (which is just a piece of paper that companies ask for as a formality), I wouldn’t have picked this job. I still need to survive 5-6 months and then I will be free. I will be free to pick a different type of job. I know there is no such thing as a perfect job, but I will go for something less stressful and better paid.
I giggled like a schoolgirl after watching this trailer. OMFG, Batman has a son in the new movie! Well, I don’t know what to say, we should’ve seen one this coming. I mean Superman gets a son in Young Justice so why shouldn’t Bruce get a son as well?