Are we living a happy life?
“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.”
What about handling multiple storms at the same time?
I was smoking on the balcony today and I was surprised to see that the neighbour from the 10th floor has fixed his window. That window has been broken ever since I can remember. And it wasn’t a small crack or anything, the window itself was missing. There were card boxes stuffed there to keep the rain and cold out.
Now, the window is fixed.
Either they are finally renovating the place or someone new has moved in.
Either way, it stuck with me.
I guess things can always be fixed, given proper time and attention. At the moment I could list a lot of things that I would like to fix or change. Starting from regular household items to personal things. There are so many its insane. I know my problems, compared with others or with issues on a global scale do not amount to much. But that’s the problem. I can’t seem to amount to much.
I desperately want something to reflect that I don’t work my ass off each day for nothing. I want something to call my very own. A product of my hard work and effort. Yet, I have nothing.
Nothing but dreams. I don’t think is wrong in dreaming big.
This year I’ve been unhappy. Worrying about everything and anything. That’s not good for anyone. Life shouldn’t be spent being unhappy. I now know why I enjoy looking at old photos of us. They we simple moments when we were happy. We were not worried about what life could send our way. We knew we can handle it. We knew if we put our heads together we could manage everything and make things happen.
We might not have something material (wealth, our own place, etc). We might be just like that neighbour with the broken window. It’s broken, it’s looks ugly but it will get fixed eventually, even if it takes a long time.
I’m going to take more photos to mark our happy life. Something that I can looks back at with joy.