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A beginners guide to become a hermit

I am slowly but surely turning into a hermit.

I’ve barely left the house 2 times this week, first time it was to take Pluto to the vet and the second time was grocery shopping. Instead, I’ve spent my time watching TV shows, reading and stitching. If I keep it up I might finish two needlepoint projects in no time.

I have a little bit left from my Renoir needlepoint.

renoir needlepoint

But it’s really hard to finish it now since Pluto managed to mess up all the floss for this project. Now I have to see which shade is which and sort them out before I can finish it.

Renoir needlepoint floss

I shouldn’t complain actually about the floss. Pluto has managed in 2 weeks to wreck half the house. It was mostly electronics and cables. For example, my Allview X2 Soul phone was one casualty, then it was Johnny’s surround system (may it rest it pieces), 2 pairs of headphones, my laptop cable, 2 cables for my phone and that’s it so far.

Anyway, my second project is by Nicolae Grigorescu. It’s called “Fata cu basma rosie”.

Grigorescu Fata cu basma rosie

I know I have other projects as well that are almost completed, but these two are my favorite at the moment. Oh well, we shall see if I become a real hermit or not.

Free time

Even if I’m unemployed at the moment, I still don’t get much done. I’ve read 2 books in the last month (Looking for Alaska and The book Thief), I haven’t stitched or knitted at all and barely seen any movies.

I’ve mostly cleaned the house, played Pokemon and watched “Malcolm in the Middle“.  Somehow I have no regrets but it doesn’t feel right at all.

You know, when I was working all I could think of was how nice it would be to just stay at home, be provided for and relax. Now, when I have all the time in the world and no work obligations, I feel a bit useless…

There are so many things I want to do and no motivation to do them; it’s freaking amazing how my brain hates me. The funny thing is that in Italy I bought a notebook (it was bloody expensive: 18 ) specially for organizing the next year of my life.

new notebooks and fineliner pens

Yet, all I can think of is where can I find the HM to teach my bird Pokemon the move Fly (I’m playing Pokemon Flora Sky on my Android phone, using an Emulator) or how many episodes of MITM should I watch before bedtime.

I need to get my ass moving and take advantage of this freedom.

Freedom at last!

It’s finally over. I kept my promise and here I am, at home and currently unemployed.

It’s actually my second day of being a “lazy bum”, but I’m still feeling the effects of the night shift and sheer exhaustion. Yesterday I had a full day. I’ve cleaned, washed, had a mini trip to the country side and more housework.

But I did took time to have a bubble bath. It’s been such a long time since I had a bubble bath. Heck, in the last year I only had quick showers. It was so relaxing that once I got of the bath, I just dropped in bed and woke up at 6 AM. Yup, I still need to fix my sleep pattern. I am unable to sleep more than 6 hours per day.

I’m also happy that I had the chance to take some photos with my new phone. Mostly flower pictures, but I am still getting used with my phone.

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And, I forgot to mention the Minions. They were fun to have. I was actually considering of leaving them in the yard for my nieces to find them when they visit. But, the weather had not been that great. It rained almost every day so far. I can’t complain much since it hasn’t ruined my vacation. And I didn’t want the Minions to get dirty.

I mean, my vacation has barely started. This weekend, will be going to Fetesti. Next week Marlanu’ will be going to my in-laws where he will stay for 3-4 weeks. On the 7th of August we’re going to Italy and we’ll be back on the 23rd. I think that’s about it for now. I mean, there might be other things to do, but I seriously don’t want to stress too much over them.

I just want to be the laziest bum ever. It’s not that I deserve it, it’s more that I need it. Working with people kinda messes you up.

Snowy winter

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Since the beginning of the year I felt like an old lady. I don’t think my mind left anything untouched. I’ve been worrying about turning 27 this year and the fact that I’ve done absolutely nothing worthy with my life. I just freaked out! 3 more years and I will be 30. Where did the years go?

The voice in my mind went crazy and just won’t stop. I can’t make it stop. This voice keeps pointing out all my flaws and makes me feel like I am the worst of them all. I don’t know if this is really because I’m just acting silly for getting older, or because I miss the sunny days of spring and summer, or that I really am such a bad person.

I really wish I would stop the whole “comparing myself with others” thing. But I just can’t stop. I really hate the women that at 6 AM are out looking picture perfect with their make up applied perfectly and dressed to impressed, with no mud stains on their shoes while I look like I just crawled out of bed with pillow marks on my face and my boots dirty from walking 10 minutes in the muddy snow till the subway. How do they do it? Why do they do it? Does it matter so much? Why do I care so much about this? Why do I suddenly want to wear skirts and dresses to work? Why do I want to have perfect skin and a body to kill for? Why do I have to be picture perfect?

Why the urgent need to change?

I really hope spring will come sooner because I need more sunshine and more walks in the park to clear my mind from all of the negative thoughts I have.