“Don’t worry, be stupid”
“Don’t worry, be stupid”
It’s warm and it’s sunny.
Stray cats are out soaking in the sunlight, dogs are playful, I’m armed with my camera waiting for the trees to blossom and Johnny got drunk yesterday (he was cute).
We all celebrate spring’s arrival in our own way, but we are celebrating the same thing.
My goal for this week: to visit the Zoo.
I’ve been asked this question every since I was little. And, till this day, I never took it seriously.
I always laughed (in my mind) at my friends when they made plans for the future, like they could actually tell what tomorrow will bring for them.
I always thought that you just have to live each day as it comes, and enjoy the “mystery” of what tomorrow may bring (even if it might not be something nice). You have no idea where you’ll not be in five years nor should you worry. After all, worrying doesn’t solve anything.
But, after 2 years of thinking “Wow, things have finally changed for me, everything seems to be working good”, life managed to give me her biggest bitch slap so far.
I guess this was a wakeup call to reality.
For the first time in my life I had nightmares and they felt more pleasant than reality. I woke up and thought “Those weren’t so bad, hmmm maybe I should go back to sleep”.
It’s just weird, I feel like I’m the only sane person left and everyone around has gone mad. But, I also feel like I’ve been taking things so light (and for granted). I realized that, even after working for 4 years I haven’t managed to do anything for myself or for my future.
I am still a silly 23 old “teenager”.
How do I see myself in 5 years?
I DON’T KNOW.
I’m trying to work it out. I’m trying to see what my options are.
Breaking old habits, changing a lifestyle, making heart aching decisions are not my specialty. I’m stuck and I’m afraid that if I try to move on I will end up hurting a lot of people including myself.
Actually change itself is scary.
I may need to go back to this post these days after I make up my mind. I think it’s time for me to think of what will happen to me at least in a one year period. Change may be scary but being depressed or having to worry about everything around me is far worse.
Time for some serious thinking.
This is something worth waiting for.
It’s been two years since I’ve been active on any kind of forums whatsoever. But, recently I joined a forum dedicated to a Korean idol group: Supernova/Cho Shin Sung/Cho Shin Sei.
The forum, Stargaze, is actually a cute community.
I’ve browsed my way around the forum and found many pictures and videos. And, I’m starting to like this song:
The song features Kim Gwangsu from Supernova and Eun Jung from T-ara.
Also, I’ve found these pictures on the Internet and I’m really loving them. Kim Gwangsu is really growing on me and not just because he’s a hottie with a beautiful smile, but also because he’s talented and has a good voice.
Credit: the names (of the pictures) and the pictures themselves have not been altered.