It’s very cold

We had the first snow of the season a few days ago. It was quite nice during night time since everything was covered in snow. The morning was disappointing since  the snow melted away and it was a depressing sight. That’s why winter in the city will never compare with winter at the country side.

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I’m hoping this year I shall have a few days off for the holidays since last year I managed to work on every single holiday possible or known to man. But, I’ll know for sure on Monday. Till then, I shall watch movies (Bollywood, Korean and whatever I have saved on my hard drive) and knit.

Yup, I managed to finish a pink scarf for me. It’s really funny, since its pink as pink can be and all my winter clothes are dark colored. Of course Marlanu’ assisted me, making sure I won’t dare move until I finished the scarf. At least he kept me warm.

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I don’t mind that the new scarf doesn’t go with anything, I was just practicing for the real deal: a gift for Johnny. I always wanted to get him something that he will like and appreciate. But I failed miserably each time. So, this year I’m going for handmade, the element of surprise and just enjoying holidays the two of us.

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I wonder if I will have time to finish the scarf for John till the 6th of December, in time for St. Nicholas? Something tells me after work I will be staying up just to knit on it.

A bit disappointed

In the long run we get no more than we have been willing to risk giving. ~Sheldon Kopp

I am giving my best, I really am… it’s just that there’s something there, deep down inside me, that always comes up whenever I need to be at my best. It’s pretty horrible to know that you were the best among many people yet you cannot get it because no confidence, motivation or assertiveness was shown.

I am good, I know I am. I am nice and hardworking person, yet I am what some people might consider soft. I am soft, I am incredible soft and it irks me to no end that I am losing on so many things because I just can’t handle my own personal shit.

I’m pretty disappointed in myself right now. I really am, but being me I am sure in a day or two I won’t care and probably lose all motivation on improving myself. After all, my main trait is laziness..

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The end of an era

I’ve made it to Nijikon this year! Usually I forget about it or don’t have any money to go. But this year, somehow I’ve made it.

I’m sorry to say this, but for me the anime conventions in Romania aren’t getting any better. Now, I’m not saying everything was that bad, heck no. I saw some awesome Cosplay, some decent merchandise, the screening room was bigger than usual but that’s about it.

The only reason I don’t regret going this year is the Totoro plushie Johnny was so kind to get me.

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The fee to get in was pretty high IMO. I’m going to quote Johnny on this one: “That was the most expensive fee we paid to go to the toilet, ever!”. I understand the building was rented for the weekend and they had to get the rent money somehow (and a little profit on the side) but if we are going to pay at least we should be able to see/find something worthy.

Around 80% of the merchandise was handmade, some were good others not so good (mostly not so good); only 2 shops with plushies or original anime/manga merchandise but not a lot of diversity. You could find One Piece, Sailor Moon, Fairy Tail and a few other anime related objects but that was it.

Everything there very expensive! Seriously, that Totoro plushie is very small but it was 50Ron (around 11€ or $15). 20 minutes, that’s how long we stayed at the convention.

This is it. I think I’m done with conventions. I don’t feel like paying just to be present somewhere.

But I got a Totoro so it wasn’t that bad. In fact, after leaving the convention the day became better and better. We went to the Botanical Garden. Apparently we paid for a walk in the park since every exposition there was closed. At least it was cheaper than at Nijikon. I managed to take a few photos with my phone and see a few brides.

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After that lunch and a game of pool, which Johnny won. We ended the day with Pacific Rim, which wasn’t what I expected it to be. Overall it was a good day. It’s been a while since we actually went out and did many things and just had fun.

Work doodles

It is cold again. No more sunshine and no more spring like weather. It’s time for winter to take its place, after all it is November. Somehow that doesn’t depress me.

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I am hoping that I will take my drivers license before the snow comes and for that I need to study for the exam. It’s not going to be fun at all.

Other than that, what can I say. Nothing new, same old things. I’m just more tired than usual and I’m guessing my brain needs a break. Especially from work, but that’s not going to happen any time soon. I can only say that I am happy towards the persons that invented the pen and paper.

Doodles are a  lifesaver for me.

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I might not be the greatest artist in the world, but somehow I feel proud after I finish one of these. It’s like my inner child is giddy with joy that I can still draw something. I still regret not keeping up with drawing like I used to, but that’s life. You can’t do everything, and I am focusing on studying … besides doodles, there are the eternal hiragan characters that I still can’t remember.

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I will get there, I won’t give up. After all I have all my life ahead to learn this language.