#3 months till 2015 ends. September came and went as fast. And what a better way to end a month than with nice catchy song from Supernova: “Moving On”.
The weather is gloomy and it’s cold.
It rained the last couple of days and I’ve made an important decision: I need to buy rubber boots. I do have a rain cape which is amazing. But I don’t have any footwear that would provide adequate protection for long walks.
The jackets from YesStyle should arrive next week (the latest). I’m 18 books behind my book challenge. I’m still a smoker. The house still needs constant cleaning and no updates have been made (either to the kitchen or anything else for the matter). I got my requested night shift. So, another 2 months of sleepless nights. Still no money in my savings account (I tried but failed this month).
Yet, I am currently happy.
While I am still behind on most things, I am making progress. I’ve almost finished the Inspector Morse collection by Collin Dexter. I don’t smoke that much anymore, and there are periods when I do not need / feel the need for a smoke. I’ve grasped a few things about my spending habits. I’ve also made good progress on my needlepoint project.
‘ve not been idle this month. I also have a game plan for October and I will work hard, both at work and for my personal gain. After all, what better time to do so than in the gloomy months of Autumn.
I’m ending this September on a good note, and also with a lovely photo of Marlanu’ and Pluto.
There’s nothing better then a bit of stitching therapy. It is a work in progress, but in two weeks I’ve advanced more than I could imagine.
I just needed something to take my mind of things. Stitching always relaxes me. It offers me the possibility to go to my happy place. A place far away from my current anxiety. I’ve been worrying more than usual, which is really not me at all.
I’ve also managed to go through a few audio books from the Inspector Morse books by Collin Dexter. I intend on finished the needlepoint and the Morse series at the same time if possible. This is the current state of my needlepoint project.
I’m also happy to see that Marlanu’ has not given up on his old habits and has been keeping me company for the many hours that I’ve spent stitching. I wish I could make such good progress on my other projects. But, they require time, patience, hard work and a lot of determination on my part.
All I can do is enjoy my free time (what I have of it) and just keep going forward.
I’m also happy to see the cold weather bringing some changes in our household. Mostly for Pluto and Marlanu’, who have taken some cute habits.
They can be so cute sometimes. I like the fact how they decided the that our bed is the best place to get a good night (day!?) rest. I guess I’m just happy that they get along so well, considering the Marlanu’ is 4 years old and Pluto just turned a year old two months ago. I couldn’t have asked for better pets.
Oh well, hopefully I’ll have more updates on the progress of my needlepoint project.
“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.”
What about handling multiple storms at the same time?
I was smoking on the balcony today and I was surprised to see that the neighbour from the 10th floor has fixed his window. That window has been broken ever since I can remember. And it wasn’t a small crack or anything, the window itself was missing. There were card boxes stuffed there to keep the rain and cold out.
Now, the window is fixed.
Either they are finally renovating the place or someone new has moved in.
Either way, it stuck with me.
I guess things can always be fixed, given proper time and attention. At the moment I could list a lot of things that I would like to fix or change. Starting from regular household items to personal things. There are so many its insane. I know my problems, compared with others or with issues on a global scale do not amount to much. But that’s the problem. I can’t seem to amount to much.
I desperately want something to reflect that I don’t work my ass off each day for nothing. I want something to call my very own. A product of my hard work and effort. Yet, I have nothing.
Nothing but dreams. I don’t think is wrong in dreaming big.
This year I’ve been unhappy. Worrying about everything and anything. That’s not good for anyone. Life shouldn’t be spent being unhappy. I now know why I enjoy looking at old photos of us. They we simple moments when we were happy. We were not worried about what life could send our way. We knew we can handle it. We knew if we put our heads together we could manage everything and make things happen.
We might not have something material (wealth, our own place, etc). We might be just like that neighbour with the broken window. It’s broken, it’s looks ugly but it will get fixed eventually, even if it takes a long time.
I’m going to take more photos to mark our happy life. Something that I can looks back at with joy.
I was wondering when the night shift will get to me. Well, it finally happened. I can’t sleep more than 4 hours straight. If I try to fall back to sleep, it’s impossible.
I forget things so easily. Loud noises are irritating to no end and I get mad from every little thing. Yet, I am determined to take another 2 months night shift. Only will power will help me through this and I intend on using every ounce of it.
At least the weather is on my side. While I admit, getting back home wet because of the rain is not one of the highlights of my day.
Yet, the cold makes the bed so much more alluring.
I also have my little quirks and hobbies that help me. I’ve been reading lately the Inspector Morse series by Colin Dexter, and knitting a new scarf.
It’s a challenge! Staying awake, being alert and productive while being tired. That’s a challenge, especially for me since I love to sleep. My biggest complaint is that I’ve lost way too much weight. Who ever said being skinny is amazing is a douchebag. Even if I eat home cooked meals, vegetables and sometimes fruits, I seem to be losing weight.
While I can complain that my clothes aren’t fitting me anymore, I would rather complain about the fact the my body feels heavy and it hurts. It’s like I’ve run a marathon and now I’m feeling the side effects of being tired all the time.
I need to change a few things in order to make myself feel better.
I got paid and I went shopping. Online shopping to be more precise. A new order was placed today on YesStyle by yours truly.
Winter jackets was this year’s target and I think I did well. For $100 I got 3 jackets (two for Johnny and one for myself) and a notebook. The package should arrive at the end of this month and I just can’t wait.
Since I started work this summer I decided that each month I will try to buy certain clothing items to improve our wardrobe. Upgrade it, if possible. I’m not referring to expensive clothes, but to certain items that we don’t have, that we need or which are work related (like shirts, skirts, things like that).
Last winter I kinda ruined Johnny’s jackets since I used to wear them whenever I had to take Pluto out. And, of course a lot of dogs jumped on me. The jackets are not wearable anymore. Well, they are still wearable, but only for dog walking.
So, to make it up I bought him 2 jackets. I hope to God that the measurements are good. I bought him one which was on clearance (so there’s no way to return it).
There were mixed reviews on it, so I went with 2 sizes bigger. It was funny really, each size was with 1-2 cm bigger than the other one. I just wanted to make sure it fits him well. I think it’s more of a autumn jacket, but that’s still good. Because the other one is more suitable for winter.
I went with navy blue with this model. Again, the product had some mixed reviews and I went with a bigger size. I even measured Johnny’s old clothes to be sure I am buying the right thing.
And for myself, I went with a classic black jacket.
I was really tempted to go with red or any other color. But, I’m not the kind of person who likes to stand out in a crowd so black suits me just fine. I couldn’t help myself, and I bought a notebook as well. It’s a really cute notebook and I’m sure I’ll find a purpose for it.
I guess I just can’t help myself when it comes to shopping. Now the money is gone from my account we can only wait for the products to come.
The only productive thing I can do in the meantime if to work hard to make more money for next month. I still have boots on my list.