I miss mornings. I miss waking up in the morning, making coffee and enjoying the sunrise. It feels so weird when I wake up at 1 AM, when everybody is asleep and outside is pitch black.
Yesterday was Saturday for me (I know it was Wednesday), and I slept from 6 AM (an hour after I finished work) till 1 AM. I just couldn’t get out of bed. I was dead tired and the bed was the best place in the whole world to be in. And here I am in front of the computer, trying to be as quiet as a mouse. I’m trying not to wake up John and in a way to be productive (which is impossible at this hour).
I am grateful that I have sleeping buddies. They keep me company all the time, everywhere..
It can be in bed:
Or, when I am at the computer:
The results for the new position at work came back. It was as expected, I didn’t get it. Truthfully, I was hopeful of my chances. That until I found out there was one more person who applied. It was all hushed up, and it was by mistake we (all who applied for it) found out. If we knew, we wouldn’t have bothered applying for it.
Soon, a new position will be opened at work. I’m still unsure if I should go for it or not. The job itself pays much better, but its one of those jobs that doesn’t give you much time for yourself, or for anything else if I think about it.
Other than that, nothing has changed. I’m still on the night shift, John still works a lot during the day. The furies are doing good, no problems there. You could say, we are stuck in one nice routine. It’s annoying.
Did I mention that the weather is turning warmer? That is one of the good things. I was getting sick and tired of wearing boots and winter jackets.
In a way I was waiting for the nice weather. That means I can walk home from work, and actually enjoy myself. I have a lot of parks on the way home. Usually they are all empty in the morning. I could take Pluto for a walk. When Pluto was a pup, I used to take him on very long walks each morning. They were the best.
We’ve been having some rainy days lately. I really can’t complain since they have their charm as well. That, and I always sleep better when it rains outside.
The last 2 weeks have been hectic enough for us. For me, long hours at work and just a lot of running around to get things done and for John has more responsibility at work. It is tiresome. I really have no idea how others manage their time so well. For us, it seems like we’re always running. And yet, with all the running around things don’t seem to get done.
I guess the term rainy days could be used to determine our current situation, not just the weather.
I am currently trying to keep my mind busy and not think of 2 things. One, which will give us a headache for the next 6-7 months (if we’re lucky, it won’t take longer) and the other which might improve something in this whole work equation.
Long story short, I applied for a better position at work. While I am pretty happy with my overall performance, I am cannot guarantee that I will get it. I haven’t forgotten how disappointed I felt last time when I had to much confidence in myself. That and others have applied for the position. There isn’t anyone who wouldn’t deserve it. So, until next week we all have to wait for the results.
“Optimism is the foundation of courage”
Hopefully, I had enough courage to give out my best during these rainy days.
How things change over the years.. I am not sure if I am in a rotten mood (because of reasons), or because I’m getting old (turning 29 next month), or because I cannot seem to enjoy certain things as I used to. For example, kpop is turning into a strange kind of music for me. Some of my favorite idols are coming up with songs that just leave me speechless.
Idol number 1:
Former Kara member, Kang Jiyoung, has debuted (in Japan!?) with a new song “Radio” which is in English
I am the only one that has the feeling she is yelling?! It doesn’t sound like signing, just constant yelling. It really hurts my ears and unfortunately, the video also hurts my eyes.
Her second song (from a total of 3, I might add), also in English, is a bit better than the one above.
I’m not sure in which direction she wants to go with her career, or what language for that matter, but I wish her the best (with the yelling and all).
Idol number 2:
T-ara Hyomin made a solo comeback just yesterday. When T-ara were in their prime, they shinned because they combined amazing vocals with amazing visuals. I swear those girls where the first ever group to combine the two perfectly. Yet, it feels that we were left with just the visuals and the vocals went on vacation.
This is one of the flattest songs I’ve ever heard!
I know for a fact that Hyomin has a good voice and can use it. But why did she choose to make a comeback with her body instead of actual talent? From all the hype that surrounded her comeback, I was expecting more. In fact, I was expecting something along the lines of “Paradise Lost” from Gain.
Gain nailed it! Hyomin missed the mark by a long shot.
I dunno. There are others that I really liked and now I cannot stand their new songs or projects. Either my taste in music in changing, or the music itself is changing (and not for the best, in my case).
Also, it irritates me to no end how hard it is to find the latest single from Choshinsei. I swear, each time it takes me up to 2 hours just to find an updated website with info regarding them. I wish I would also find their YouTube channel; that would make things much easier for me.
I think I appreciate seasons now more then when I was young. In my youth summer had its rightful place because of the long summer vacation. I now believe spring is by far more important.
We live in a city where parks are scarce and few, where the color gray is constant and tiresome. Winter in the city will always be gloomy. Even when it snows you can’t really enjoy it. The snow will soon become dirty from all the cars and traffic, or it will just melt away leaving dirty puddles everywhere.
Spring makes the city come to life.
In just two weeks the trees have bloomed! We had amazing weather and I felt like my batteries were recharged. I have made it my personal goal to go the park or to the country side each weekend, if the weather allows us. I don’t care that I work during the weekends (night shift). I know I won’t feel as tired as I would be if I would just sleep all day.
I just want to bask in the sunlight!
I have missed the sun. I have missed seeing colors (mostly green). I have missed being out of the house. I am so happy we have a dog! I now have the perfect reason to take John out of the house. He wasn’t a fan of parks before, but now he jumps on the opportunity to tire Pluto (the dog has a lot of energy). Because I plan on saving money as well, going to the park is the perfect solution for an outing. You can even make a picnic, play board games, card games, chit chat and just relax.
Spring might be short, but I plan on making the most of it.
I’m currently looking for a cross stitch pattern. I am looking for something simple and cute. This was supposed to be something easy and quick. Well, there are a lot of simple and cute patterns out there. The hard part is choosing just one to stitch.
To sew.. or not to sew?
I think most stitchers out there have the same problem as I do: to sew.. or not to sew?
There are so many patterns out there that is really hard to pick just a few. Considering stitching is a time consuming hobby (it can take from one week, to a couple of months and up to years to finish one project), it’s very hard to decide what will be the next project.
I find it difficult to actually finish my current projects. Hence, I try to vary between large projects (needlepoint projects that will take more than a year to finish) and small projects (mostly cross stitch patterns that can be found for free online). And yet, I cannot fight the urge of buying or downloading new patterns.
There are so many patterns out there. I want them all. It feels like Pokemon. You start off with 150, and then realize that there are more and more as each year passes.
Should I go with a cat, dog, owl, or that cute mouse? Maybe a landscape, or a bookmark? Or, how about some Adventure Time? Why not Harry Potter?
This is such a drag. At this rate I won’t get the chance to do anything. I hope I will make up my mind till morning comes. I want to take advantage of this weekend and actually do nothing productive with my time. I just want to chill, while listening to audio books and let my hands work on a new project. That sounds just perfect to me.
Still searching. This is becoming a real struggle.