Happy thoughts

To think positive is hard. Trying to have happy thoughts when everything around you goes wrong, is harder.

Happy thoughts

Yet, it always good to step back from certain things. For example, it is not alright to overwork yourself, no matter how many things you want to complete, take of the to-do list and so on. I find this counterproductive.

It does no one any good if I am tired, and if I look and act like a total grinch. Which is exactly what is happening at work.

In fact, it is happening to all of us, not just me. We are really being overworked, and in a way it will get worse. So, for today and I am going to skip a meeting which is right in the middle of the day. Meaning, it doesn’t give me enough time to rest for tonight. Not only that there will be another meeting this evening, but I will also work on a shift with a man short.

While I can handle work with a person less on the shift, I cannot handle being tired.

So, here I am with a face mask on my face writing a post and thinking about happy thoughts. Oh, I also did my nails a sparkly blue.

One of those happy thoughts that I mentioned is a 3 day weekend, that will come soon. Then there are the new books that I have, and the new stitching cat project that I am working on. Even the thought of being lazy and not to anything, makes me happy.

Also, my project for next month is on its way. I want a photo album, and I am gonna get one. The hard part is sorting the pictures. I think I will go for a family theme, with all four of us. Yes, I am going to include the fuzzballs as well.

Pluto and Marlanu'

*Happy thoughts*

Tired

If I would rate my current state of mind and body from 1 to 10, 1 being the lowest and 10 being the highest, I would probably say tired.

Yep, tired is the best word to describe me at the moment.

The heat isn’t helping either. But, I do enjoy the landscape.

Clouds for a tired mind

I think I bit off more than I could chew when I decided to apply for a higher position. It is too much and I don’t have enough time to assimilate everything. I guess you could say I am overwhelmed. I don’t like to admit this, but its true. Now, I am not one to shy away from work. I enjoy working, but I don’t like it when it changes me.

Being tired makes me very touchy feeling. You could say that I feel that everyone and everything is working against me. Yet, that’s not true. A lot of people have helped, as much as they could, to get me through this period. I am really grateful to them.

So, I am determined to stop being a grinch and get back on track. So, I will get back to my resolution: no more complaining.

On a happy note, I would like to mention that I really like my new position. I like the fact that I get to learn new things and it puts things in perspective. I get to see things from the other side and realize that things are not always as they seem. With that, I do feel bad for the previous owners of this position.

Will, I quit? I don’t think so. Not yet, anyway. When the time comes to move on, I will know.

~~~Quick update on our life~~~

  • we went to the country side, at my parents house, just to have lunch;
  • we went to Fetesti, for a weekend! It was refreshing and it has been such a long time since we paid a visit;
  • we went to the cinema for free since Johnny won two tickets at “Now you see me 2”;
  • we went to Bookfest, where I got three lovely books about cat warriors. YES. I bought books for children.
  • made a new friend which works at a publishing company and she provides me with books! We wouldn’t have had the chance to meet her if it weren’t for Pluto. Owning a dog ROCKS!
  • had a lovely workshop (work related stuff), meet new people. Realized that our entire company is made out of crazy people.
  • got new clothes;
  • paid half of my debt. It took me 4 months to do this, and it will take another 4 to pay it in full. Overtime is my new best friend at work.
  • August is right around the corner and that means Vacation for both of us.

That’s just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to good things. I might be tired, but in a way I am happy. I am tired because I work and I do things that make me happy.

And no matter how tired I am, I will always have time and patience to take photos of the moments that make my life great.

Pluto waiting for Johnny

Gloom and doom

Growing up sucks! I know this is not something new,but I just feel like ranting. Half a year has gone by, and I swear I didn’t feel it. Days come and go, with no real meaning or anything that might differentiate between them.

Everything is hectic and depressing.

No free time for hobbies or for relaxing. If it is not work, then the house needs attending. I swear, as much as I love cleaning it has become a herculean task. Combined with cooking and taking care of our pets, it leaves no time whatsoever for myself. If I would be asked for one word to describe myself at the moment, it would be a “hobbit”. Why? Well, hairy legs is the first thing that comes to mind. At least hobbits have nice clean houses.

Even as I write this, I am looking around and all that I can see are things that need to be done. At least I have my audio books. They make cleaning so much easier.

I would love a vacation right now. At least a week away from all of this. Yet, I am fully aware that a vacation will come (in August) and that I won’t enjoy it. Plans are already being made for us and I am dreading every bit of it. I am seriously starting to think that we will never have children of our own. The spawns of other people fill me up with disgust. Not sure if it’s because of the children themselves, the parents or both.

Half a year gone in a blink of an eye. It is so sad. In half a year, I used to stitch, read books, go out and have fun, enjoy the company of others, watch movies and entire anime series. We used to make happy memories. I used to gather photos that would remind me of those times.

It has been a long time since I made a happy memory, without it to be spoiled by anyone. I really need to rethink my priorities!