I can barely bring myself to type after this weekend. My hands are refusing to work as they normally should.
It is not pain that I feel, but numbness. My fingers are numb and tingly. Two days in a row of constant typing. I never want to do this again.
This is Friday for me. I have one more night shift and then I will be able to enjoy my
during the week weekend. I have no idea what I will do with my free days. My mind is telling me that a cleaning would be the best option, as the house is not looking so well. Yet, my entire body is yelling that sleep and slacking around would be best.
It is a tough decision.
I really envy Pluto and Marlanu’ in these cases. They have no moral dilemmas of their own. They just sleep, eat, play around and some more sleep.
I can’t wait for December to come. I also want snow and pretty things to shine and sparkle on the streets. The mood for this weather is gloomy and sad. We could really use some cheering up.
That and more sleep. In fact, I will add this to my 2017 list: Get more rest / sleep.
Yes. There will be a 2017 list. I am not sure what the list will contain, but I will make one. I will make a lovely and achievable list for next year. Which, I hope I won’t have to start off by working. Chances for that to happen: 80%.
We shall live and see.
It is starting to get colder.
In a way, I wish it would snow already. Yet the more practical side of me doesn’t want it. Not now.
I have a lot of nice memories with a winter background. I want to make many more.
I have about three hours before I go to work.
I dislike the afternoon shift. It is not because the work volume is bigger than on any other shift, but because of all the people that are in the office. I hate having to smile and say hello to everyone. I dislike most of them because they make our job more miserable than it already is.
I am not good at hiding my emotions either.
So, I just pass by with my head down. Or, I pick the hours when I know no one is around.
Even so, my biggest dislike sits right behind me. I cannot hide from that.
I am thinking of starting a new list for December.
It will contain mostly things that need to be done (like house chores). It will be a good distraction for me (from my job and anything else that might be a downer). In a way it will help me sort things out in the house as well.
It has been a while since I cleaned and organized things. I think that it would also be a lot of fun. Losing myself in the process, and even listening to a good audio book while I work away.
I must pick a weekend when I am home alone and a good audio book. This way no one will bother or distract me.
It is funny how the end of the year keeps getting closer. It feels like just a few days ago it was summer, and I was waiting for autumn to come.
I can honestly say, I haven’t felt the last couple of months. Everything feels like a blur or work and sleepless nights. In fact, the next period will carry on in the same manner. I am trying to come to terms that the winter holidays are coming soon, and I might not get the chance to enjoy them. In fact, I should be making plans on how to make my holidays more enjoyable at work.
But then again, the holidays will come and go just like the rest of it all. The lack of plans and effort seems like the best way to go.
While work might’ve occupied most of my time and thoughts, I have made time to read and stitch. I made amazing progress with one of my stitching projects. It still has a long way to go before it will be finished, but it will be finished. Slowly, but surely. Just like everything else that has happened this year.
After 5 years I have completed my reading challenge. Not only that, but I exceeded it and still have plenty of time to spare till the end of the year. In a way, reading has been a great comfort to me. It has provided a good reason to interact with my colleagues (a safe topic of discussion that cannot be used against me). It has also been a refuge from the constant nagging in the back of my head that I am not in the best of places (as far as work is concerned).
I have read so many wonderful books this year!
It makes me feel sad that I didn’t think to try new things sooner. I have learned that I enjoy fantasy a great deal, that adventures that take place on hundreds of pages are the most amazing, and that books can influence so much one’s state of mind. In a way, books have been a lifesaver for me. They kept me sane, with so many things going on.
Well, I can’t say it has been such a horrible year. After all, I accomplished more (in terms of importance) this year than any before. For me, that speaks volumes. When the new year comes, I can truly say that it will be a fresh start. I will not have any luggage from the past to hold me down.
That is a comforting and happy thought.
I’ve worked hard this year to fix all past mistakes, next year I should work hard on building up a good base for our future.