It’s snowing. I’m on the morning shift at work. I didn’t finish the scarf I was working on and the cat just scratched me and it hurts like hell.
Free time
22 November, 2013
A bit disappointed
In the long run we get no more than we have been willing to risk giving. ~Sheldon Kopp
I am giving my best, I really am… it’s just that there’s something there, deep down inside me, that always comes up whenever I need to be at my best. It’s pretty horrible to know that you were the best among many people yet you cannot get it because no confidence, motivation or assertiveness was shown.
I am good, I know I am. I am nice and hardworking person, yet I am what some people might consider soft. I am soft, I am incredible soft and it irks me to no end that I am losing on so many things because I just can’t handle my own personal shit.
I’m pretty disappointed in myself right now. I really am, but being me I am sure in a day or two I won’t care and probably lose all motivation on improving myself. After all, my main trait is laziness..
3 November, 2013
The end of an era
I’ve made it to Nijikon this year! Usually I forget about it or don’t have any money to go. But this year, somehow I’ve made it.
I’m sorry to say this, but for me the anime conventions in Romania aren’t getting any better. Now, I’m not saying everything was that bad, heck no. I saw some awesome Cosplay, some decent merchandise, the screening room was bigger than usual but that’s about it.
The only reason I don’t regret going this year is the Totoro plushie Johnny was so kind to get me.
The fee to get in was pretty high IMO. I’m going to quote Johnny on this one: “That was the most expensive fee we paid to go to the toilet, ever!”. I understand the building was rented for the weekend and they had to get the rent money somehow (and a little profit on the side) but if we are going to pay at least we should be able to see/find something worthy.
Around 80% of the merchandise was handmade, some were good others not so good (mostly not so good); only 2 shops with plushies or original anime/manga merchandise but not a lot of diversity. You could find One Piece, Sailor Moon, Fairy Tail and a few other anime related objects but that was it.
Everything there very expensive! Seriously, that Totoro plushie is very small but it was 50Ron (around 11€ or $15). 20 minutes, that’s how long we stayed at the convention.
This is it. I think I’m done with conventions. I don’t feel like paying just to be present somewhere.
But I got a Totoro so it wasn’t that bad. In fact, after leaving the convention the day became better and better. We went to the Botanical Garden. Apparently we paid for a walk in the park since every exposition there was closed. At least it was cheaper than at Nijikon. I managed to take a few photos with my phone and see a few brides.
After that lunch and a game of pool, which Johnny won. We ended the day with Pacific Rim, which wasn’t what I expected it to be. Overall it was a good day. It’s been a while since we actually went out and did many things and just had fun.
1 November, 2013
Work doodles
It is cold again. No more sunshine and no more spring like weather. It’s time for winter to take its place, after all it is November. Somehow that doesn’t depress me.
I am hoping that I will take my drivers license before the snow comes and for that I need to study for the exam. It’s not going to be fun at all.
Other than that, what can I say. Nothing new, same old things. I’m just more tired than usual and I’m guessing my brain needs a break. Especially from work, but that’s not going to happen any time soon. I can only say that I am happy towards the persons that invented the pen and paper.
Doodles are a lifesaver for me.
I might not be the greatest artist in the world, but somehow I feel proud after I finish one of these. It’s like my inner child is giddy with joy that I can still draw something. I still regret not keeping up with drawing like I used to, but that’s life. You can’t do everything, and I am focusing on studying … besides doodles, there are the eternal hiragan characters that I still can’t remember.
I will get there, I won’t give up. After all I have all my life ahead to learn this language.
27 October, 2013
Warm weather
It’s very warm for this time of the year. I was expecting more rain and bitter cold weather. Yet, it’s sunny and warm.
I cannot complain but I really wanted to take lots of autumn photos. No chance, because lately I’ve became so lazy that I barely got out and when I do I get annoyed because there are a lot of people around me. I don’t like people, I want empty streets.
I know I’m an idiot but I shall focus on being lazy today.
In the last 2-3 months I haven’t done anything. I’m wasting each day and it’s sad. I really need motivation. Yet I cannot find anything that can keep me motivated for longer than a few hours.
Tumblr is not helping me at well. I’ve became addicted to all those awesome blogs.
I shall need a break from Internet…
26 October, 2013
And the gif version..
I could re-watch The Princess Bride and Stardust all over again and never get sick of them. I don’t why, but this quote has been stuck in my mind for the last couple of weeks. In a why, this is what I am feeling but then again things are not going bad.
23 October, 2013
Random moments of the past few days
I love my phone! It allows me to take snaps of little things that make my days (and life in general) much better. So, in no particular order:
My current read: Maigret by Georges Simenon:
Our pet turtle who doesn’t get that much attention (not like Marlanu’ anyway):
The whoopie pie maker that I received from work for Customer Service Week:
And a sunset at work, plus my first tilt shift photo done on Instagram:
I might not live a life full of adventures like in movies, but its not bad for a normal person.
22 October, 2013
Moments in life
There are moments when I can be brilliant and then there are those moments when I can be a total moron.
Unfortunately, most of the times I am a moron.
I am now aware why I cannot afford nice things, why people cannot take me serious and why I haven’t changed as much as my friends have. I shall be the eternal adorable idiot. Yes, adorable because being just an idiot is too common.
11 December, 2013
Mission accomplished
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I am pretty proud of myself today. Tired but proud.
I woke up this morning with just one thought: I need to clean. That’s what I did till now, I cleaned our two bedrooms and I managed to throw away so many useless things. I got rid of old bags, shoes, empty boxes and all the small things that we just didn’t need but were taking up space.
It’s amazing how many things just one person can collect over the years. And there was so much dust. It was everywhere, including on me. After I felt satisfied with the result (and when I was too tired to continue) I took a long bath. Somehow all the cleaning reminded me of a nice scene from a certain movie:
Even if I only had one day off from work where I could relax, I don’t regret anything. I really needed to just clean and declutter our personal space. It was getting to the point where we didn’t have room for us to stay.
Plus I still have the afternoon free so I can just sit back and watch some TV. Overall, today was a good and productive day.