September is coming to an end, slowly but surely. The days are getting shorter, while the nights are getting longer.
Thinking about it makes me nostalgic. I keep remembering moments from years ago..
Truthfully, I don’t remember last autumn and winter. We were so busy that I don’t have any memories of what happened. I know that Christmas was cute and that we had a tree in our house; that New Years was short and spent with friends. But, my memories stop there.
I don’t remember what I did with the rest of my time? Did I have fun? Or, was I so consumed in what I was doing (work most likely) that everything else just faded away?
I feel robbed.
I am sure that things will be hectic this year as well. We have so many projects and tasks to complete, and time is just slipping away. Yet, I am able to enjoy sweet simple moments. For example, drinking tea while eating homemade strawberry jam, while reading and cuddling with Marlanu’.
I miss cooking as well. I don’t know why, but autumn is the best season to cook. It might be me, but the food tastes better (especially homemade food).
I have a lot of things planned out for the next few weeks. I am hoping that I won’t lose my motivation along the way. There will be homemade food. There will be moments to enjoy. I will make sure to enjoy them all as they come. Sounds like a responsibility, but it’s more like a reminder of sort.
True to my word, I stitched these last couple of days. I just didn’t want to do anything else.
I even picked a nice theme (from my goodies basket): Autumn Landscape. It goes with the weather!
It is a big project, but the fact it has large parts to stitch with just one color helps. I think that’s why I was able to stitch so much. I missed it. I am amazed how I could go an entire summer without picking up the thread and needle. I will not say when I will finish it. I always do that and I never finish them. Well, I finish them in a couple of years. There is no rush when stitching, especially if you stitch for yourself.
Thinking about it, there are a lot of things we haven’t done this summer. We didn’t go to the sea side. We didn’t go out as much as before. Considering everything that went on, it is more than justified that we focused on other things.
I am also waiting for October for one good reason. It will be the last month to pay off whatever I have left to pay. I will be debt free and I will be able to enjoy my entire paycheck. 15 days to be more precise. I just can’t wait to get it over with. Enjoy is not the best word. There are other things that we need to take care of as well.
Winter is coming and we will need new tires for the car and a few other things.
It feels more and more like a grownup talking and making plans.
Weekends are for fun! I’ve missed going to the park to walk the dog. I think Pluto missed it as well. In fact, it’s been well over a month since we went to the park.
It was a refreshing afternoon! It was spent walking around, eating ice cream and some people (like Johnny and co) playing Pokemon Go. I guess there was something for all of us to do. Even Pluto was smiling from ear to ear.
I walked the dog and looked around in amazement how things have changed (once again). It really made me feel like I haven’t left the house in years. We didn’t have doggy company, since our friends with dogs were out of town but we managed making new friends.
There was even a library set up in the park. They provided chairs, blankets, comfortable places to sit on and books. They had small libraries from which you could pick up books, in case you didn’t have one with you.
I also loved the fact that it wasn’t crowded. Usually, the park if full during the weekends. This time it was relatively empty. I’m guessing people are still on vacation, taking advantage of the last days of warmth.
In a way, we were taking advantage of the last days of warmth. But, I can’t wait for the cold to come. This way, we can walk Pluto without having to worry that he will overheat. We even had a few family photos taken. Some were derpy, some were cute. In fact, I can’t wait for the chance to create a new photo album.
By the way, this weekend we’re also going to the park.
It is really amazing how a simple event can change your life altogether. There are a few things in my life that I do not regret, and this is one of them.
If we wouldn’t have gotten Pluto, there would be a lot of friends that we would’ve missed out. A lot of things that we might never had the chance to do. Marlanu’ would’ve missed on a playing / sleeping buddy.
I am in a pretty good mood, considering I’ve only slept 4 hours after being on the night shift. Did I mention that I will tonight as well? It can’t be helped at the moment, since I do need money like everybody else.
But, I am happy! Yes, I am happy because f*ck it all. Why shouldn’t I be happy?
I officially applied for a new job. It comes with recommendations from friends. I have a pretty good shot at it, and I decided it is worth the risk. It is now or never and I should do everything possible to get the job. That includes practicing my English grammar. There is one sucky part. If I am to quit, I will have to stay 45 working days at the current job, till they find someone to fill in my position. That’s the only drawback of having a leadership position. Normally it would be 21 working days.
Oh well, we shall live and see where this will go. After all that has been going on this year, all that I can say is “bring it“.
Our two weeks vacation is almost over. Time really flies when you’re having fun.
My only regret is that we couldn’t take Pluto with us. He would’ve enjoyed all the places we went to. So much freedom, places to run and have fun.
Our vacation was not exotic, nor did we go abroad. We went up north to visit relatives and places that we never saw before. There are a lot of places in own country that we haven’t seen. So going abroad makes no sense to us. We could’ve went to the sea side like we always did. But, this time we focused on the mountains.
It was the best decision ever.
The weather was amazing. I loved the chilly mornings and evenings. It made me realize how much I want Autumn to come. The food was great. In fact I think we both gained a lil bit of weight.
I really have no complaints.
It kinda sucks that we have to go to work on Monday. But, then again we do need money. I am hoping that we will get other chances to go out and have fun. I am hoping that we will have the chance to go on a vacation just the two of us. Until then, we are left with the memories and the photos we took.
It was lovely, even if we went mostly to old churches or monasteries (like Voronet Monastery).
There also a few other stops that were planned well ahead.
Others were not planned..
Some were just to cute to pass by.
And some were amazing, like driving through the clouds.
Overall, it was a good experience. It is a pity it will end soon and we will all go back to our daily routine and even forget about these lovely two weeks.
I am in need of happy thoughts. I need anything and everything that would make me happy.
Long story short, this month has been a disaster at work. I officially give up on trying to make things happen. I have no chance in hell to make it, especially now.
So, why bother.
It’s not like I am going anywhere for the next three months. Might as well enjoy the ride with all its bumps and all that.
Mostly cause I need the money, and second cause I need the money. Yep, I want a big bed for us all to sleep in it. I want to take that Cambridge exam, and even enroll in foreign language courses. I want to buy nice clothes for myself. I want to buy nice clothes for Johnny. I want us to live a comfortable life.
Compared to all my dreams and ambitions (small as they may be), eight hours a day seem insignificant.
After all, how can I be upset when I have my guys at home.
I cannot stay mad when Pluto smiles from every inch of his furry body.
Even on Marlanu’ who always sleeps on my stuff.
Or when I have Johnny that always waits for me at home with little surprises (usually good food, that does the trick after a long day). Having happy thoughts is not hard for me. I am surrounded by so many good things, that it should be a crime to stay upset or worry about anything.
One can never have enough books, even if they are running out of shelving space. I must admit, it is a pain in the ass to clean up the bookcase, considering the amount of dust and animal hair that goes around in this house. Yet, I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I am going for two things this year: pay off my debt (4 months to go) and completing my reading challenge (50 books). So far, I am on track with both of them. If all goes well, at the end of the year I will be able to say “I am debt free“, and also that I have cultivated my mind and soul.
While I do own a Kindle, I also listen to audio books and I also love reading the good all fashion way.
I am not prejudiced to any method of devouring the content of a good book. For a while audio books have been the obvious choice for me. Given the amount of work I put in, at my actual workplace and at home. Audio books free up my hands! I can do other things, like cleaning, cooking or even stitching.
Kindle helps me be a hoarder on my laptop, without killing my budget or filling up the house. It saves space, and I never liked a cluttered house.
But there are some books that I would rather own. Not many, but some I just love seeing in my bookcase.
I am a huge fan of Agatha Christie. If I ever get to visit U.K., most likely I will visit all the places that have connection with her and with Hercule Poirot. It is also my dream to have a book signed by David Suchet. He is the one and only Hercule Poirot! Following this logic, it was only natural for me to freak out when I saw this jewel in Carturesti Carusel:
I did try to get the English version, but they didn’t have it. I won’t complain, since it was such an unexpected find. I didn’t have the heart to remove the plastic cover. I think that will be done when I start reading it. I am keeping it for our August vacation.
In fact, in the last two months I managed to get my hands on a few volumes that are certainly interesting.
There are more actually, is just they aren’t in the house at the moment. At work, we do borrow from others, but we also lent others our books. This is one of the things that I love about work.
I did read “The girl with all the gifts”. It is the only one I got the chance to finish. In fact it was hard not to finish, since it captivated me so much. It took me just one Saturday. It was a well spent Saturday. I have no regrets about it.
In fact, I am thinking that once I do finish paying off my debt, I could invest in a new bookcase. The one I got from Ikea many years ago is still fine and can hold quite a few volumes of different sizes and shapes. My only problem is that there is no more room in our bedroom, so I will have to set it up in the living room. And yet, I can’t just have one bookcase there. It’s not symmetric enough. So, I will have to settle for two.
I can also use them as storage space, so that’s a win – win situation.
To think positive is hard. Trying to have happy thoughts when everything around you goes wrong, is harder.
Yet, it always good to step back from certain things. For example, it is not alright to overwork yourself, no matter how many things you want to complete, take of the to-do list and so on. I find this counterproductive.
It does no one any good if I am tired, and if I look and act like a total grinch. Which is exactly what is happening at work.
In fact, it is happening to all of us, not just me. We are really being overworked, and in a way it will get worse. So, for today and I am going to skip a meeting which is right in the middle of the day. Meaning, it doesn’t give me enough time to rest for tonight. Not only that there will be another meeting this evening, but I will also work on a shift with a man short.
While I can handle work with a person less on the shift, I cannot handle being tired.
So, here I am with a face mask on my face writing a post and thinking about happy thoughts. Oh, I also did my nails a sparkly blue.
One of those happy thoughts that I mentioned is a 3 day weekend, that will come soon. Then there are the new books that I have, and the new stitching cat project that I am working on. Even the thought of being lazy and not to anything, makes me happy.
Also, my project for next month is on its way. I want a photo album, and I am gonna get one. The hard part is sorting the pictures. I think I will go for a family theme, with all four of us. Yes, I am going to include the fuzzballs as well.
If I would rate my current state of mind and body from 1 to 10, 1 being the lowest and 10 being the highest, I would probably say tired.
Yep, tired is the best word to describe me at the moment.
The heat isn’t helping either. But, I do enjoy the landscape.
I think I bit off more than I could chew when I decided to apply for a higher position. It is too much and I don’t have enough time to assimilate everything. I guess you could say I am overwhelmed. I don’t like to admit this, but its true. Now, I am not one to shy away from work. I enjoy working, but I don’t like it when it changes me.
Being tired makes me very touchy feeling. You could say that I feel that everyone and everything is working against me. Yet, that’s not true. A lot of people have helped, as much as they could, to get me through this period. I am really grateful to them.
So, I am determined to stop being a grinch and get back on track. So, I will get back to my resolution: no more complaining.
On a happy note, I would like to mention that I really like my new position. I like the fact that I get to learn new things and it puts things in perspective. I get to see things from the other side and realize that things are not always as they seem. With that, I do feel bad for the previous owners of this position.
Will, I quit? I don’t think so. Not yet, anyway. When the time comes to move on, I will know.
~~~Quick update on our life~~~
we went to the country side, at my parents house, just to have lunch;
we went to Fetesti, for a weekend! It was refreshing and it has been such a long time since we paid a visit;
we went to the cinema for free since Johnny won two tickets at “Now you see me 2”;
we went to Bookfest, where I got three lovely books about cat warriors. YES. I bought books for children.
made a new friend which works at a publishing company and she provides me with books! We wouldn’t have had the chance to meet her if it weren’t for Pluto. Owning a dog ROCKS!
had a lovely workshop (work related stuff), meet new people. Realized that our entire company is made out of crazy people.
got new clothes;
paid half of my debt. It took me 4 months to do this, and it will take another 4 to pay it in full. Overtime is my new best friend at work.
August is right around the corner and that means Vacation for both of us.
That’s just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to good things. I might be tired, but in a way I am happy. I am tired because I work and I do things that make me happy.
And no matter how tired I am, I will always have time and patience to take photos of the moments that make my life great.
I miss mornings. I miss waking up in the morning, making coffee and enjoying the sunrise. It feels so weird when I wake up at 1 AM, when everybody is asleep and outside is pitch black.
Yesterday was Saturday for me (I know it was Wednesday), and I slept from 6 AM (an hour after I finished work) till 1 AM. I just couldn’t get out of bed. I was dead tired and the bed was the best place in the whole world to be in. And here I am in front of the computer, trying to be as quiet as a mouse. I’m trying not to wake up John and in a way to be productive (which is impossible at this hour).
I am grateful that I have sleeping buddies. They keep me company all the time, everywhere..
It can be in bed:
Or, when I am at the computer:
The results for the new position at work came back. It was as expected, I didn’t get it. Truthfully, I was hopeful of my chances. That until I found out there was one more person who applied. It was all hushed up, and it was by mistake we (all who applied for it) found out. If we knew, we wouldn’t have bothered applying for it.
Soon, a new position will be opened at work. I’m still unsure if I should go for it or not. The job itself pays much better, but its one of those jobs that doesn’t give you much time for yourself, or for anything else if I think about it.
Other than that, nothing has changed. I’m still on the night shift, John still works a lot during the day. The furies are doing good, no problems there. You could say, we are stuck in one nice routine. It’s annoying.
Did I mention that the weather is turning warmer? That is one of the good things. I was getting sick and tired of wearing boots and winter jackets.
In a way I was waiting for the nice weather. That means I can walk home from work, and actually enjoy myself. I have a lot of parks on the way home. Usually they are all empty in the morning. I could take Pluto for a walk. When Pluto was a pup, I used to take him on very long walks each morning. They were the best.