Today is back to work day for the both of us. In a way I wish it was back to school day, but those days are long gone. Pay day is coming and that will make things easier for the both of us.
I am happy that the summer heat is gone, and slowly autumn is making its claim. I do love autumn. In fact it is my favorite season.
Four more months and the year will also end.
It wasn’t a bad year, if I think about it. In two months I will be debt free. I finished my reading challenge, and if I try a bit harder I might finish other things till the end of the year. It was a challenging year and I’ve learnt a great deal about myself.
Four more months of making decisions and taking action.
It might be that it is early morning, but I do feel that there are a lot of opportunities and chances to be taken. It is an optimistic feeling that I am having. I don’t know if it is a good feeling or that I still need a cup of coffee and to take a good look around me. I like feeling optimistic and making plans. Soon enough I will be free to make bigger plans. I cannot wait for October to come, to feel financially free.
In fact, I can’t wait for tonight to come so I can see my friends from work. I missed them. I missed being around them. In a way, I miss them more than old friends that I haven’t seen in a very long time.
So, it’s back to work day and I am feeling happy. It is a good feeling to have.
Our two weeks vacation is almost over. Time really flies when you’re having fun.
My only regret is that we couldn’t take Pluto with us. He would’ve enjoyed all the places we went to. So much freedom, places to run and have fun.
Our vacation was not exotic, nor did we go abroad. We went up north to visit relatives and places that we never saw before. There are a lot of places in own country that we haven’t seen. So going abroad makes no sense to us. We could’ve went to the sea side like we always did. But, this time we focused on the mountains.
It was the best decision ever.
The weather was amazing. I loved the chilly mornings and evenings. It made me realize how much I want Autumn to come. The food was great. In fact I think we both gained a lil bit of weight.
I really have no complaints.
It kinda sucks that we have to go to work on Monday. But, then again we do need money. I am hoping that we will get other chances to go out and have fun. I am hoping that we will have the chance to go on a vacation just the two of us. Until then, we are left with the memories and the photos we took.
It was lovely, even if we went mostly to old churches or monasteries (like Voronet Monastery).
There also a few other stops that were planned well ahead.
Others were not planned..
Some were just to cute to pass by.
And some were amazing, like driving through the clouds.
Overall, it was a good experience. It is a pity it will end soon and we will all go back to our daily routine and even forget about these lovely two weeks.
I am in need of happy thoughts. I need anything and everything that would make me happy.
Long story short, this month has been a disaster at work. I officially give up on trying to make things happen. I have no chance in hell to make it, especially now.
So, why bother.
It’s not like I am going anywhere for the next three months. Might as well enjoy the ride with all its bumps and all that.
Mostly cause I need the money, and second cause I need the money. Yep, I want a big bed for us all to sleep in it. I want to take that Cambridge exam, and even enroll in foreign language courses. I want to buy nice clothes for myself. I want to buy nice clothes for Johnny. I want us to live a comfortable life.
Compared to all my dreams and ambitions (small as they may be), eight hours a day seem insignificant.
After all, how can I be upset when I have my guys at home.
I cannot stay mad when Pluto smiles from every inch of his furry body.
Even on Marlanu’ who always sleeps on my stuff.
Or when I have Johnny that always waits for me at home with little surprises (usually good food, that does the trick after a long day). Having happy thoughts is not hard for me. I am surrounded by so many good things, that it should be a crime to stay upset or worry about anything.
One can never have enough books, even if they are running out of shelving space. I must admit, it is a pain in the ass to clean up the bookcase, considering the amount of dust and animal hair that goes around in this house. Yet, I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I am going for two things this year: pay off my debt (4 months to go) and completing my reading challenge (50 books). So far, I am on track with both of them. If all goes well, at the end of the year I will be able to say “I am debt free“, and also that I have cultivated my mind and soul.
While I do own a Kindle, I also listen to audio books and I also love reading the good all fashion way.
I am not prejudiced to any method of devouring the content of a good book. For a while audio books have been the obvious choice for me. Given the amount of work I put in, at my actual workplace and at home. Audio books free up my hands! I can do other things, like cleaning, cooking or even stitching.
Kindle helps me be a hoarder on my laptop, without killing my budget or filling up the house. It saves space, and I never liked a cluttered house.
But there are some books that I would rather own. Not many, but some I just love seeing in my bookcase.
I am a huge fan of Agatha Christie. If I ever get to visit U.K., most likely I will visit all the places that have connection with her and with Hercule Poirot. It is also my dream to have a book signed by David Suchet. He is the one and only Hercule Poirot! Following this logic, it was only natural for me to freak out when I saw this jewel in Carturesti Carusel:
David Suchet: Poirot and me
I did try to get the English version, but they didn’t have it. I won’t complain, since it was such an unexpected find. I didn’t have the heart to remove the plastic cover. I think that will be done when I start reading it. I am keeping it for our August vacation.
In fact, in the last two months I managed to get my hands on a few volumes that are certainly interesting.
There are more actually, is just they aren’t in the house at the moment. At work, we do borrow from others, but we also lent others our books. This is one of the things that I love about work.
I did read “The girl with all the gifts”. It is the only one I got the chance to finish. In fact it was hard not to finish, since it captivated me so much. It took me just one Saturday. It was a well spent Saturday. I have no regrets about it.
In fact, I am thinking that once I do finish paying off my debt, I could invest in a new bookcase. The one I got from Ikea many years ago is still fine and can hold quite a few volumes of different sizes and shapes. My only problem is that there is no more room in our bedroom, so I will have to set it up in the living room. And yet, I can’t just have one bookcase there. It’s not symmetric enough. So, I will have to settle for two.
I can also use them as storage space, so that’s a win – win situation.
To think positive is hard. Trying to have happy thoughts when everything around you goes wrong, is harder.
Yet, it always good to step back from certain things. For example, it is not alright to overwork yourself, no matter how many things you want to complete, take of the to-do list and so on. I find this counterproductive.
It does no one any good if I am tired, and if I look and act like a total grinch. Which is exactly what is happening at work.
In fact, it is happening to all of us, not just me. We are really being overworked, and in a way it will get worse. So, for today and I am going to skip a meeting which is right in the middle of the day. Meaning, it doesn’t give me enough time to rest for tonight. Not only that there will be another meeting this evening, but I will also work on a shift with a man short.
While I can handle work with a person less on the shift, I cannot handle being tired.
So, here I am with a face mask on my face writing a post and thinking about happy thoughts. Oh, I also did my nails a sparkly blue.
One of those happy thoughts that I mentioned is a 3 day weekend, that will come soon. Then there are the new books that I have, and the new stitching cat project that I am working on. Even the thought of being lazy and not to anything, makes me happy.
Also, my project for next month is on its way. I want a photo album, and I am gonna get one. The hard part is sorting the pictures. I think I will go for a family theme, with all four of us. Yes, I am going to include the fuzzballs as well.
If I would rate my current state of mind and body from 1 to 10, 1 being the lowest and 10 being the highest, I would probably say tired.
Yep, tired is the best word to describe me at the moment.
The heat isn’t helping either. But, I do enjoy the landscape.
I think I bit off more than I could chew when I decided to apply for a higher position. It is too much and I don’t have enough time to assimilate everything. I guess you could say I am overwhelmed. I don’t like to admit this, but its true. Now, I am not one to shy away from work. I enjoy working, but I don’t like it when it changes me.
Being tired makes me very touchy feeling. You could say that I feel that everyone and everything is working against me. Yet, that’s not true. A lot of people have helped, as much as they could, to get me through this period. I am really grateful to them.
So, I am determined to stop being a grinch and get back on track. So, I will get back to my resolution: no more complaining.
On a happy note, I would like to mention that I really like my new position. I like the fact that I get to learn new things and it puts things in perspective. I get to see things from the other side and realize that things are not always as they seem. With that, I do feel bad for the previous owners of this position.
Will, I quit? I don’t think so. Not yet, anyway. When the time comes to move on, I will know.
~~~Quick update on our life~~~
we went to the country side, at my parents house, just to have lunch;
we went to Fetesti, for a weekend! It was refreshing and it has been such a long time since we paid a visit;
we went to the cinema for free since Johnny won two tickets at “Now you see me 2”;
we went to Bookfest, where I got three lovely books about cat warriors. YES. I bought books for children.
made a new friend which works at a publishing company and she provides me with books! We wouldn’t have had the chance to meet her if it weren’t for Pluto. Owning a dog ROCKS!
had a lovely workshop (work related stuff), meet new people. Realized that our entire company is made out of crazy people.
got new clothes;
paid half of my debt. It took me 4 months to do this, and it will take another 4 to pay it in full. Overtime is my new best friend at work.
August is right around the corner and that means Vacation for both of us.
That’s just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to good things. I might be tired, but in a way I am happy. I am tired because I work and I do things that make me happy.
And no matter how tired I am, I will always have time and patience to take photos of the moments that make my life great.