Today is back to work day for the both of us. In a way I wish it was back to school day, but those days are long gone. Pay day is coming and that will make things easier for the both of us.

I am happy that the summer heat is gone, and slowly autumn is making its claim. I do love autumn. In fact it is my favorite season.

Four more months and the year will also end.

It wasn’t a bad year, if I think about it. In two months I will be debt free. I finished my reading challenge, and if I try a bit harder I might finish other things till the end of the year. It was a challenging year and I’ve learnt a great deal about myself.

Four more months of making decisions and taking action.

It might be that it is early morning, but I do feel that there are a lot of opportunities and chances to be taken. It is an optimistic feeling that I am having. I don’t know if it is a good feeling or that I still need a cup of coffee and to take a good look around me. I like feeling optimistic and making plans. Soon enough I will be free to make bigger plans. I cannot wait for October to come, to feel financially free.

In fact, I can’t wait for tonight to come so I can see my friends from work. I missed them. I missed being around them. In a way, I miss them more than old friends that I haven’t seen in a very long time.

So, it’s back to work day and I am feeling happy. It is a good feeling to have.

Are we living a happy life?

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“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.”

Haruki Murakami

What about handling multiple storms at the same time?

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I was smoking on the balcony today and I was surprised to see that the neighbour from the 10th floor has fixed his window. That window has been broken ever since I can remember. And it wasn’t a small crack or anything, the window itself was missing. There were card boxes stuffed there to keep the rain and cold out.

Now, the window is fixed.

Either they are finally renovating the place or someone new has moved in.

Either way, it stuck with me.

 I guess things can always be fixed, given proper time and attention. At the moment I could list a lot of things that I would like to fix or change. Starting from regular household items to personal things. There are so many its insane. I know my problems, compared with others or with issues on a global scale do not amount to much. But that’s the problem. I can’t seem to amount to much.

I desperately want something to reflect that I don’t work my ass off each day for nothing. I want something to call my very own. A product of my hard work and effort. Yet, I have nothing.

Nothing but dreams. I don’t think is wrong in dreaming big.

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This year I’ve been unhappy. Worrying about everything and anything. That’s not good for anyone. Life shouldn’t be spent being unhappy. I now know why I enjoy looking at old photos of us. They we simple moments when we were happy. We were not worried about what life could send our way. We knew we can handle it. We knew if we put our heads together we could manage everything and make things happen.

We might not have something material (wealth, our own place, etc). We might be just like that neighbour with the broken window. It’s broken, it’s looks ugly but it will get fixed eventually, even if it takes a long time.

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I’m going to take more photos to mark our happy life. Something that I can looks back at with joy.

I’m feeling happy. I don’t have a specific reason for feeling this way. I just do.

Or, I believe I might have one. I was a bit lost in finding a specific goal to keep me motivated and just grounded. I couldn’t find one till I opened my blog (this one).

This blog makes me happy. It has precious memories of our daily adventures. We might not live a glamorous life, but it’s our life and that makes it so much more special. What keeps me motivated and grounded is making precious memories. And I’ve managed to keep things happy and free of any personal drama away from this special place.

This is a happy place for me.

My goal is to build a life I don’t need a vacation from – Rob Hill Sr

This quote describes best my current feelings.

So, I’m just going to keep working on improving my vacation free life and make it as enjoyable as possible. I am also plotting on a few adventures with John. After all, it’s been such a long time since we went on an adventure. Just the 2 of us (and something tells me, Pluto will be joining in).

Just one more month and things will start moving. I can’t wait for things to get back on the same old track. And, if I will ever need motivating I shall come back to this place. Feeling happy, being happy, whatever the term I’m good with it.

On that note, tomorrow I shall go back to work feeling motivated.