3 January, 2014
Went to work today. I hated it! I had a hard time to find the will to get out of bed and just get ready for work. It’s not the morning shift, it’s not the people, it’s the job itself. It’s depressing and unrewarding.
Yet, I found a good spot and kept it throughout the day. Did my own thing and just pushed forward.
Positive thoughts, taking action and baby steps towards my happy place. I shall soon find it, and I know I won’t be disappointed. Writing random thoughts on a notebook at the end of the day helps a lot.
Tomorrow I shall do something. I don’t know what, but I will do it. Just for the heck of it.
18 December, 2013
I have so many things to be happy about, yet just one thing gone wrong and my entire good mood went away. So, at the moment I’m trying to get back to my happy place.
I mean, I should be happy. I’ve seen a movie that I wanted to see since last year (when we saw the first part), I have a new game to play, new clothes, I’m free for Christmas and right now I am enjoying my weekend (which is in the middle of the week).
Saturday & Sunday were awesome on so many levels for me.
On Saturday, after work we went out. We had dinner at a chinese place and went to see “The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug“. I never knew I had a fangirl inside of me that just needed activation.
First of all, the amount of screen time Kili received in the second part was incredible. They probably realized the power Aidan Turner has on the female population and took full advantage of it. I mean, I have his face on my phone screen. I’m not like this, I swear! But my good he has such a nice eye smile.
But back to the movie itself..
I was surprised to see that in the cinema there were parents with kids, old people, couples, friends. I mean this movie was for everyone. It was fun, it had a little bit of romance thrown in, a lot of action (the barrel scene was funny, Legolas being a ballerina and all that), drama and of course the ending that probably killed everyone since it will take another year for the third part to come out.
Still, at the end I heard some people saying they didn’t enjoy it. I was shocked, but then again I recognize the type. The ones that are never satisfied by anything, and always find something to complain about, so they don’t actually count.
Moving on, on Sunday we had a mini team building. It was fun to hang out with people from work. We had dinner, went to laser tag and even karting. There was no difference between us and the little kids that were running around in the arcade. Sometimes, I thought we were worse. Of course there were minor incidents, hitting each other, crashing the karts, little things like that.
We were supposed to also go to a movie, but it was getting late and some of us had work the next day and we just separated around midnight. That was the sad part, but we’ll have other team buildings not to worry.
Oh, and Christmas came early this year for me and Johnny. New clothes, including underwear and socks (it wouldn’t be Christmas without them), a new watch for Johnny, a PS3 for the both of us, and lots of games. My favorite is Kingdom Hearts.
I used to play this game when I was in high school, but along the way I got addicted to it and they took it away from me. I can totally understand them, but now they have no power over me. I shall play till my heart is content, or till I get annoyed with a certain level that I can’t pass.
Overall, things are great. The fact that I won’t have a full vacation and won’t be able to celebrate the holidays properly shouldn’t count that much. I should try to get the best out of it.
11 December, 2013
I am pretty proud of myself today. Tired but proud.
I woke up this morning with just one thought: I need to clean. That’s what I did till now, I cleaned our two bedrooms and I managed to throw away so many useless things. I got rid of old bags, shoes, empty boxes and all the small things that we just didn’t need but were taking up space.
It’s amazing how many things just one person can collect over the years. And there was so much dust. It was everywhere, including on me. After I felt satisfied with the result (and when I was too tired to continue) I took a long bath. Somehow all the cleaning reminded me of a nice scene from a certain movie:
Even if I only had one day off from work where I could relax, I don’t regret anything. I really needed to just clean and declutter our personal space. It was getting to the point where we didn’t have room for us to stay.
Plus I still have the afternoon free so I can just sit back and watch some TV. Overall, today was a good and productive day.
22 November, 2013
In the long run we get no more than we have been willing to risk giving. ~Sheldon Kopp
I am giving my best, I really am… it’s just that there’s something there, deep down inside me, that always comes up whenever I need to be at my best. It’s pretty horrible to know that you were the best among many people yet you cannot get it because no confidence, motivation or assertiveness was shown.
I am good, I know I am. I am nice and hardworking person, yet I am what some people might consider soft. I am soft, I am incredible soft and it irks me to no end that I am losing on so many things because I just can’t handle my own personal shit.
I’m pretty disappointed in myself right now. I really am, but being me I am sure in a day or two I won’t care and probably lose all motivation on improving myself. After all, my main trait is laziness..
26 October, 2013
I could re-watch The Princess Bride and Stardust all over again and never get sick of them. I don’t why, but this quote has been stuck in my mind for the last couple of weeks. In a why, this is what I am feeling but then again things are not going bad.
19 October, 2013
Source of this brilliant gif set. Tumblr just rocks my socks.
8 October, 2013
I missed watching a good TV show. I really did! With all the crap that is on TV right now, no wonder we only keep the cable for the Discovery and cartoon channels.
I am very grateful for people bringing up old TV shows to the attention of the world, because this is how I found “Boy Meets World”.
Boy Meets World is a TV show that started in 1993 and ended in 2000. It was never aired on the Romanian cable (which is a pity). I started watching the series about 2-3 months ago (I will be forever grateful to the Internet). It has 7 seasons per total and I am currently at the 5th season. I don’t want it to end.
It’s about a weird kid going through school and life, with funny situations and with awesome life lessons. This one is just a small example of what people today are missing.
Why can’t they make shows like this one anymore? Seriously, what happened to television. Especially sitcoms like this one. Why did they stop making them?
Besides enjoying this series, I also feel in love with the actors. Never heard of them before, but now I can recognize them without any problems. They are serious actors and such awesome role models, both in character (in Boy Meets World) and in real life. My favorite by far is Topanga Lawrence played by Danielle Fishel. She’s everything that today’s society tell us not to be, and yet she still is a beautiful woman.
I also loved the fashion of that time, with large sweaters, lots of layers and just the lack of technology, especially of cellphones. Whenever I watch a new episode I get a trip down the memory lane, back to my very fun and weird teenage years.
I now understand why people get depressed when an awesome show ends. I still have 2 more seasons, what will I do after that? I need to find more awesome shows like this one.
2 September, 2013
Officially Autumn is here. It’s not cold or anything, nor the weather changed much, it’s just that it is September and that means a lot of things.
You see, September is like a second beginning to me. Like the start of a new year. The weather just wakes you up and you get on a mood to do things, to be productive.
I don’t know why, but that’s how I feel. I mean, I lost my entire Saturday cleaning up the house and I am proud of it. Not only that, but finished all the shopping. And I’m actually waiting to see when I can enroll in the 3rd year at university, but that’s a different thing altogether.
Also, I think I like September because school starts. I had a great time in school, but now I like this period because kids will come out of hiding and go to school. Its fun to see all those girls trying so hard to look great each day, and in fact they look like they over 30. Sounds mean but it is entertaining.
Oh well, its nice to want to do something, but I wonder how long this will last.
14 August, 2013
I’m tired of this heat. I’m tired of taking showers for nothing. I’m tired cause I can’t sleep at night because of the heat. Two months of summer are enough for me. I just want Autumn.
I want to walk down the street and enjoy the Autumn air. I want to war jeans and boots. I want to go the park and see this:
Tumblr is not helping me at all.