Spring is slowly coming. We’ve had lovely weather this past week. It was sunny and warm. It really lifted my spirits.
What really made me happy, was the fact that I got the call that I was waiting for. Next Wednesday, I will have my first face to face interview. I know it might not seem much, but for me that interview is a life line. Considering everything that went on in the last two weeks, a job interview is something to look forward to.
I know I shouldn’t count the days. But, I can’t help it. I just want to break free of that place.
With that said, I am planning on making my days count. I will try my hardest to get out of the rut that was self imposed because of work.
I do love the new book shelves that we got from Ikea. They changed the room. The fact that I couldn’t fit in all my books in them, doesn’t matter at all. I still had free space in our bedroom.
I’ve also made some decent progress at my Autumn needlepoint. In fact, if I keep it up, I should be able to finish it in a couple of months. It is a very large project that I have undertaken. But, it is worth it.
Of course, whenever I stitch I have company.
They might not help with the actual stitching, but they do provide a good company, even when all they do is sleep.
I missed spending time with my furry friends. I missed wasting time. I hope that soon enough, I will miss having to worry about how each day will turn out.
I should just follow the example from Pluto and Marlanu’, and just enjoy each moment as it passes. It seems to be working out great for them.
I was finally able to sign my resignation. Last day of work: 12.04.2017.
You might think that my CV is updated, that I am actively applying for jobs. I haven’t done anything of the sort. I just cleaned the house and rested.
It was such a wonderful feeling to have time to waste. It has been such a long time since I felt happy about doing regular things. Listening to music, stitching, watching a Bollywood movie, walking Pluto, resting with Marlanu’ and Pluto. It felt incredible.
I don’t regret anything. If stability means losing your own self, I would rather have instability. I would rather struggle and be happy, then comfortable and miserable.
I want to make happy memories, at work and at home. I don’t one thing to affect the other. I want to feel good about myself, once again. To be honest, I started feeling really old. I started thinking that there is nothing out there for me. That I am not good enough for anything else. It showed on my face, in the way I dressed, the way I acted. I was a sad person.
That is not who I am.
I am a happy person by nature. The smallest things make me the happiest. When I laugh, Pluto laughs with me. He feels my happiness. Yet, I haven’t had a real laugh in ages. Even the blog became depressing.
In March I will apply again to get my driver’s license. Johnny was right. If I want road trips that we can both enjoy, I should step up as well. I started learning Spanish, as I planned. I don’t know much, but at least I can count to 10 in Spanish. I also understand most things said to me, but I still can’t reply back.
So, my action plan for the next two months: small steps to get back my old happy self.
I am just stating the obvious here: It is bloody cold!
Yes, I am aware it is winter. I am also aware, that we are in January and this is the coldest month of the year. I would not have any problem, if I wouldn’t have to take the dog out or go to work.
This is the first year that we had to get Pluto doggy footwear. It wasn’t hard to convince Johnny to buy them. It wasn’t a want, but more of an urgent need for the poor dog. Pluto seemed to love them as soon as he was outside and he was able to run around. I was hoping he wouldn’t drag me along anymore, but that hope was soon lost on me.
Taking Pluto out for short walks is fun, and we do get some exercise in. But, we do have those moments when enough is enough. Those are the moments that we slowly go back home. The moments when something warm is all that we want.
I do love winter, just not at the moment.
Maybe I am a bit grumpy, since I didn’t get enough rest in the last 2 days. All I know is that the bed is the best place to be at the moment. It is warm and comfortable. I also love it when all four of us are cuddling (Marlanu’ and Pluto like spending time with us as well).
Marlanu’ knows best since he seems to be sleeping more.
A visit to the in-laws might cheer me up. After all, they have the good food and a soup would go perfectly.
We are getting ready for Christmas, slowly but surely.
Marlanu and the Christmas tree
We have a lovely Christmas tree. It is not perfect, but it is so pretty. It smells nice as well.
And that’s about all we have ready for Christmas.
We don’t have any grand plans. In fact, we have no plans at all for the winter holidays. I shall be working on the night shift for Christmas, but I will have the last days of the year free. I call that a good bargain.
At least I will be starting 2017 at home, with my family. I couldn’t ask for more. It seems kinda dull, but we have barely spent time together this last couple of months.
We have missed on a lot of opportunities to have fun and enjoy ourselves.
I want to change it all in 2017.
September is coming to an end, slowly but surely. The days are getting shorter, while the nights are getting longer.
Thinking about it makes me nostalgic. I keep remembering moments from years ago..
Truthfully, I don’t remember last autumn and winter. We were so busy that I don’t have any memories of what happened. I know that Christmas was cute and that we had a tree in our house; that New Years was short and spent with friends. But, my memories stop there.
I don’t remember what I did with the rest of my time? Did I have fun? Or, was I so consumed in what I was doing (work most likely) that everything else just faded away?
I feel robbed.
I am sure that things will be hectic this year as well. We have so many projects and tasks to complete, and time is just slipping away. Yet, I am able to enjoy sweet simple moments. For example, drinking tea while eating homemade strawberry jam, while reading and cuddling with Marlanu’.
I miss cooking as well. I don’t know why, but autumn is the best season to cook. It might be me, but the food tastes better (especially homemade food).
I have a lot of things planned out for the next few weeks. I am hoping that I won’t lose my motivation along the way. There will be homemade food. There will be moments to enjoy. I will make sure to enjoy them all as they come. Sounds like a responsibility, but it’s more like a reminder of sort.
Two years ago on this day, we got a dog! And now, that said dog sleeps next to the very couch that he slept the day we brought him home.
It is really amazing how a simple event can change your life altogether. There are a few things in my life that I do not regret, and this is one of them.
If we wouldn’t have gotten Pluto, there would be a lot of friends that we would’ve missed out. A lot of things that we might never had the chance to do. Marlanu’ would’ve missed on a playing / sleeping buddy.
I am in a pretty good mood, considering I’ve only slept 4 hours after being on the night shift. Did I mention that I will tonight as well? It can’t be helped at the moment, since I do need money like everybody else.
But, I am happy! Yes, I am happy because f*ck it all. Why shouldn’t I be happy?
I officially applied for a new job. It comes with recommendations from friends. I have a pretty good shot at it, and I decided it is worth the risk. It is now or never and I should do everything possible to get the job. That includes practicing my English grammar. There is one sucky part. If I am to quit, I will have to stay 45 working days at the current job, till they find someone to fill in my position. That’s the only drawback of having a leadership position. Normally it would be 21 working days.
Oh well, we shall live and see where this will go. After all that has been going on this year, all that I can say is “bring it“.