There’s nothing better then a bit of stitching therapy. It is a work in progress, but in two weeks I’ve advanced more than I could imagine.
I just needed something to take my mind of things. Stitching always relaxes me. It offers me the possibility to go to my happy place. A place far away from my current anxiety. I’ve been worrying more than usual, which is really not me at all.
I’ve also managed to go through a few audio books from the Inspector Morse books by Collin Dexter. I intend on finished the needlepoint and the Morse series at the same time if possible. This is the current state of my needlepoint project.
I’m also happy to see that Marlanu’ has not given up on his old habits and has been keeping me company for the many hours that I’ve spent stitching. I wish I could make such good progress on my other projects. But, they require time, patience, hard work and a lot of determination on my part.
All I can do is enjoy my free time (what I have of it) and just keep going forward.
I’m also happy to see the cold weather bringing some changes in our household. Mostly for Pluto and Marlanu’, who have taken some cute habits.
They can be so cute sometimes. I like the fact how they decided the that our bed is the best place to get a good night (day!?) rest. I guess I’m just happy that they get along so well, considering the Marlanu’ is 4 years old and Pluto just turned a year old two months ago. I couldn’t have asked for better pets.
Oh well, hopefully I’ll have more updates on the progress of my needlepoint project.
“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.”
What about handling multiple storms at the same time?
I was smoking on the balcony today and I was surprised to see that the neighbour from the 10th floor has fixed his window. That window has been broken ever since I can remember. And it wasn’t a small crack or anything, the window itself was missing. There were card boxes stuffed there to keep the rain and cold out.
Now, the window is fixed.
Either they are finally renovating the place or someone new has moved in.
Either way, it stuck with me.
I guess things can always be fixed, given proper time and attention. At the moment I could list a lot of things that I would like to fix or change. Starting from regular household items to personal things. There are so many its insane. I know my problems, compared with others or with issues on a global scale do not amount to much. But that’s the problem. I can’t seem to amount to much.
I desperately want something to reflect that I don’t work my ass off each day for nothing. I want something to call my very own. A product of my hard work and effort. Yet, I have nothing.
Nothing but dreams. I don’t think is wrong in dreaming big.
This year I’ve been unhappy. Worrying about everything and anything. That’s not good for anyone. Life shouldn’t be spent being unhappy. I now know why I enjoy looking at old photos of us. They we simple moments when we were happy. We were not worried about what life could send our way. We knew we can handle it. We knew if we put our heads together we could manage everything and make things happen.
We might not have something material (wealth, our own place, etc). We might be just like that neighbour with the broken window. It’s broken, it’s looks ugly but it will get fixed eventually, even if it takes a long time.
I’m going to take more photos to mark our happy life. Something that I can looks back at with joy.
I was wondering when the night shift will get to me. Well, it finally happened. I can’t sleep more than 4 hours straight. If I try to fall back to sleep, it’s impossible.
I forget things so easily. Loud noises are irritating to no end and I get mad from every little thing. Yet, I am determined to take another 2 months night shift. Only will power will help me through this and I intend on using every ounce of it.
At least the weather is on my side. While I admit, getting back home wet because of the rain is not one of the highlights of my day.
Yet, the cold makes the bed so much more alluring.
I also have my little quirks and hobbies that help me. I’ve been reading lately the Inspector Morse series by Colin Dexter, and knitting a new scarf.
It’s a challenge! Staying awake, being alert and productive while being tired. That’s a challenge, especially for me since I love to sleep. My biggest complaint is that I’ve lost way too much weight. Who ever said being skinny is amazing is a douchebag. Even if I eat home cooked meals, vegetables and sometimes fruits, I seem to be losing weight.
While I can complain that my clothes aren’t fitting me anymore, I would rather complain about the fact the my body feels heavy and it hurts. It’s like I’ve run a marathon and now I’m feeling the side effects of being tired all the time.
I need to change a few things in order to make myself feel better.
I got paid and I went shopping. Online shopping to be more precise. A new order was placed today on YesStyle by yours truly.
Winter jackets was this year’s target and I think I did well. For $100 I got 3 jackets (two for Johnny and one for myself) and a notebook. The package should arrive at the end of this month and I just can’t wait.
Since I started work this summer I decided that each month I will try to buy certain clothing items to improve our wardrobe. Upgrade it, if possible. I’m not referring to expensive clothes, but to certain items that we don’t have, that we need or which are work related (like shirts, skirts, things like that).
Last winter I kinda ruined Johnny’s jackets since I used to wear them whenever I had to take Pluto out. And, of course a lot of dogs jumped on me. The jackets are not wearable anymore. Well, they are still wearable, but only for dog walking.
So, to make it up I bought him 2 jackets. I hope to God that the measurements are good. I bought him one which was on clearance (so there’s no way to return it).
There were mixed reviews on it, so I went with 2 sizes bigger. It was funny really, each size was with 1-2 cm bigger than the other one. I just wanted to make sure it fits him well. I think it’s more of a autumn jacket, but that’s still good. Because the other one is more suitable for winter.
I went with navy blue with this model. Again, the product had some mixed reviews and I went with a bigger size. I even measured Johnny’s old clothes to be sure I am buying the right thing.
And for myself, I went with a classic black jacket.
I was really tempted to go with red or any other color. But, I’m not the kind of person who likes to stand out in a crowd so black suits me just fine. I couldn’t help myself, and I bought a notebook as well. It’s a really cute notebook and I’m sure I’ll find a purpose for it.
I guess I just can’t help myself when it comes to shopping. Now the money is gone from my account we can only wait for the products to come.
The only productive thing I can do in the meantime if to work hard to make more money for next month. I still have boots on my list.
The days are shorter. The nights are colder (even if the days are still hot). It’s really nice to know that that amazing autumn weather is coming soon. Come rain, come gloomy weather, but just come.
We’ve been doing good.
It was a good period. I guess we’re both tired with work and other stuff that is going on in our life. But we’re good. I think, this year will end on a good note. That if nothing unexpected turn up. The thought itself is actually a relief. It’s actually nice to be back on track and the only things we need to worry is cleaning and what to make for dinner. Pluto had no more medical emergencies, Marlanu’ is doing great and being more affectionate than ever.
It’s all just going great.
I’m also happy that on the 4th of September, meaning this Friday, I will go on a mini team building with the guys (actually girls) from work. It’s my first time going out with them. It was really funny when I came back to the company that everybody knew who I was and I had no idea who they were. It took me about a month to learn everyone by name.
We’ll just have to get a baby sitter for Pluto. It will be a bit tricky since I start work on Thursday evening (at 11 PM) and I won’t be back home till Friday evening because of the mini team building. Johnny will also work on Friday and we have relatives coming over for the weekend. Thank God for friends!
Autumn, is that you? I know it’s impossible, but the weather has turned around. It’s actually cold for this time of the year. It’s amazing!
For the next 3 days it will rain and it will be cloudy.
I’m the happiest person ever at the moment. I’m actually drinking hot tea and I’m wearing my long pajamas.
I wonder if my minions will cuddle with me if I get in bed. I missed sleeping in the same bed with Pluto and Marlanu’.
I want the trees to go from green to the nice autumny shades. I want to wear chunky sweaters. Boots! Oh my God! I almost forgot about boots. I love boots. I should get a pair of brown boots. I don’t have brown boots.
Oh, oh and I can knit without getting a heat stroke. Snuggling under the blankets! There are so many awesome things I love about Autumn. It would take me a while to list them all.
If everything goes right, I might go wild and I’ll buy some new blankets so I can have something to snuggle underneath. Oh my, I can watch Bollywood movies or anime. Hayao Miyazaki comes to mind and a few of his movies that I haven’t watched yet.
I should make a list. I should definitely make a list so I won’t forget this feeling. But, that means a new notebook/agenda. I saw some pretty ones on the Internet.
I’m all giddy.
Just a few more weeks for Autumn to take her rights.
The best way to start off the working week (I don’t start on Monday but on Wednesday) is with gifts from far away.
Remember my friend that I was proud of? Well, she came back from South Korea and she brought goodies with her. I kindly asked her to buy me anything! There are a lot of websites that mention the best souvenirs one can buy from South Korea, but I didn’t want her to waste her vacation on running around for souvenirs. So anything was fine with me.
I gave her 50 RON, which is about ₩14825 KRW (I really didn’t have much to spare at that time). She came back with a cute pair of socks (which I will never wear), a pencil case, a face mask and, of course, a key charm.
The pencil case I will actually use it for my cables and small electronics (like my mp3 player, USB stick, and so on). The key charm I added it to a pouch that I received as a gift from another friend 2 years ago (when she traveled to Greece) and the face mask will be used on a special “me time” occasion.
That’s not all. There are more gifts. Yes, I call them gifts even if I paid for them. I can gift myself from time to time, can’t I?
It’s been a month since I placed the order for these 2 beauties. Truthfully, it was worth the wait and the money. I just picked up the first 2 volumes from “Real” by Takehiko Inoue.
This might not seem much, but for me it means the world to be able to indulge myself in my hobbies. It gives me a boost whenever I go to work. After all, we shouldn’t work just to make a living but also to enjoy a little bit of life.
As a bonus, this little gift was from Johnny from our trip to Brasov
I’ve made so many plans for this year. So far, almost of all of them have gone bust or have been forgotten. But I’ve been rallying on about the kitchen for a few months now.
The apartment we live in is owned by my parents. They moved to the country side last summer and left us in charge of the place. Which is awesome! We don’t have to pay rent or anything, we just need to pay all the bills and to make sure the house is kept up.
But, that’s the thing. The house is clean and all (all thanks to me), but the last time it was renovated was back when I was still in middle school. Quick reminder that I’m 28 years old now. It’s been a long time since anything has been done in the house (besides our bedroom and the appliances that broke down). We also got a cat and a dog, and there were some damages done. Not major damages. but the place could do with some improvements.
I’m fully aware that this place is not ours, but it will be a while before we could get a place of our own (with minimum damage to our financial status). So, I really don’t mind making some improvements, especially to the kitchen.
I was planning on buying things one at a time, not to disrupt our day to day expenses. But, that didn’t happen. The fridge broke down!
Truthfully, I was expecting the oven to go first.
I’m so glad my paycheck was great this month, and that Johnny is going to get his paycheck with 3 days sooner. We went shopping this weekend, and the fridge is full. If anything would go bad I would kick myself. We spent a good deal of money on groceries, since we made sure we have enough for an entire month. All the important stuff is in the freezer (meat mostly).
I am, in a way, happy that we are getting a new fridge. But, I was hopping to buy tile first. Then the kitchen cabinets, shelves and a new sink. Afterwards a new kitchen table and lastly, if needed, the appliances.
One thing that I enjoy about me being back at work, is the fact that I’ve made new friends. There are a lot of interesting characters, with different hobbies and interests. And, by chance I was able to find someone with common hobbies! That’s a rare thing and I am really giddy about it.
This new friend is very much in love with the Korean culture.
She is very active in learning and pursuing her own interests (culture, language, and so on). She is on a different level than I am, and I couldn’t be more happy and proud of her. Proud that she is actively pursuing her goals and dreams.
She is currently in Korea! Yup. She’s participating in the World Samulnori Competition! I’m guessing she is having a lot of fun and seeing a lot of awesome things. I can’t wait for her to get back. I want details and amazing stories to be shared. Most likely, an outing is in order so we can enjoy ourselves better.
One thing I do know for sure, I’m probably gonna want to go all out as well. So, she’s going to be a good muse for me. That, and I also want to speak Korean and Japanese (need to get back to practicing).
Ahh, the joys of having a friend with common interests. That never happened to me before.
Hope, she’ll come back soon and I hope she had a great time there. HWAITING!
I know this might sound crazy, but I can’t wait for September.
I am fully aware the weather will not get colder as soon as the 1st of September comes, but I hope it will not be as hot as it is now. Since I still have 2 more months on the night shift, and I want another 2 more (for financial reasons), I just want nice weather for me to sleep during the day.
25 more days of waiting.. Yes, I counted the days in the calendar.
For me to complete my current goals, I need money. And for money, I need the night shift. But, for me to be functional on the night shift I need to sleep. And for me to sleep, I need to have a nice comfortable bed, a quiet environment and if possible colder weather.
I’m gonna be as busy as possible this month (when I am awake) just to make time pass faster.
With that in mind, I started a week of good habits. I haven’t smoked in almost 12 hours (trying to quit!). I had breakfast and lunch (healthy home made food), cleaned the house, read and even watched a few episodes from “Gilmore Girls” (almost finished season 1).
God, I want this weather to go away! I want Autumn. I want September to come and I want my phone to be fixed so I can take nice pictures. I want sweaters and jackets. I want to be able to wear jeans without worrying that I won’t be able to get out of them.
And, it will take another 25 days till I can use this gif:
Oh well, at least I hope I will quit smoking this year.