Time flies when you’re having fun. I am tired, but oh so happy. I’ve made some great memories in the past two months, and done things that I wouldn’t have dream of.
It feels liberating. It feels just right. I feel happy.
The best part is that more is to come, and I truly believe that this will be a memorable year for me. I’ve learned new things about me. I have become more confident and the best of them all: I am back! I’ve regained my wild self that takes chances and doesn’t back down when there is something that I want.
I used to be so servantile, wanting to please everyone around me.
Now, I just go and do the things I want without asking for permission or waiting for others to join in.
This feels like the right way to go…
I have been hiking with two other friends.
I have been in Belgium (and a few other places), for training (for my current job). Tomorrow, I shall leave again for Belgium for another three weeks, for more training.
It was a welcome break from all the things that have made up my life, till now.
Then, in August we shall have a one week vacation to Greece (all paid for with cash up front). One week of just relaxing in the sun and enjoying the sea. To put it in perspective, it has been three years since we last went to the sea side.
My co-workers are planning a hiking trip, then team bonding and team building.
Did I mention that I beat my own personal record at wearing make-up (just because I wanted to): two full months!
I know it might not seem much, but for me it was an eye opener. We’ve been focused so much on work, and trying to make things right with everybody that we’ve put ourselves on second place.
I am not saying that things will carry on like this forever, I’m just saying that it is great to have the chance to experience so many things after a complete lock down on our social lives.
Heck, I even got the chance to fulfill one of my childhood dreams: I got a Goku tattoo! I wanted this for so long, but never dreamed that I would wake up one day and say I want it and then get it done.
Sure, it was painful and I still need another sitting to finish it. But, it is an achievement. It is one of those things on my bucket list that I never dreamed of fulfilling.
When I think about it, it is not like I am working less or being a lazy bum. No. The work is new and demanding, but it is fun and rewarding. I am going to give full credit to this to the awesome team that I am in.
I realized yesterday, that we do have things that piss us off. But, the fact that we talk openly about them and try to find solutions, by ranting and swearing, and even with logic and different opinions, it fills me up with joy.
My old team was awesome. I do miss them. But, the environment we were working was so restrictive and toxic that it made us all bitter.
I can honestly say I am currently happy. Happiness really is a state of mind. Having a balanced life, between work and home really does wonders.
Note: I also got a chance to relax and just be myself!