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Trouble in paradise

There are 3 stages that I go through when things don’t go my way:

  • get depressed
  • block the bad things out
  • scheme my way out.

Believe it or not, it works so well I don’t know if I should feel proud of myself or ashamed. But, at the moment I’m pretty happy that I am set on fixing everything in my life, even if it means scheming my way out of difficult situations. It’s a thing that I’m good at so why give it up.

P.S. I forgot to mention that there is another stage, a minor one, the one where I binge on food till the idea comes to me.

Baby steps

Went to work today. I hated it! I had a hard time to find the will to get out of bed and just get ready for work. It’s not the morning shift, it’s not the people, it’s the job itself. It’s depressing and unrewarding.

Yet, I found a good spot and kept it throughout the day. Did my own thing and just pushed forward.

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Positive thoughts, taking action and baby steps towards my happy place. I shall soon find it, and I know I won’t be disappointed. Writing random thoughts on a notebook at the end of the day helps a lot.

Tomorrow I shall do something. I don’t know what, but I will do it. Just for the heck of it.

Less overwhelming

Everything becomes less overwhelming when we take one day at a time. If I take things slowly and focus on each day, I can avoid falling in a rut.
It worked two days so far. Lets see if I can keep this up.
By the way, tomorrow it’s the first day at work for the year. I want to see how I will feel about it.

And I’m back at being lazy

I swear its not on purpose. No matter how much I sleep, I still wake up tired and nothing gets done.

I’m guessing the night shift tiredness is catching up on me. 3 more weeks on this schedule and then we shall see if it gets better or if it gets worse.

Oh well, I might as well move my ass and do some cleaning if I’m complaining about not doing anything. Here’s a nice picture from the office

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And it’s almost August

It’s almost August and the heat is unbearable. I don’t like the heat. I can’t stand it. The heat makes me lazy.

I would like to do many things but it’s so hot and my body refuses to do anything that might require effort. Even going out seems like a chore. And I’m starting to feel that my “depressed” mood is part of the weather.

You see, since I came back from vacation I had this nagging feeling that I am not going anywhere and that I should change something, anything. And here I am asking myself what’s wrong? I can’t find anything wrong, is just my stupid hormones that need to shut up.

Still, if my guts say I need to do something, I have to do something.

So, here’s another random rant from me. Will be back with a list of “to-do” for the last few months of the year.

Spring?

It’s actually nice and sunny. It’s warm!

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Spring? Is that you?

Oh, last day of work than a 4 day weekend. I can’t wait to just slack around and do whatever I want. I think a walk in the park would do me me good.

Even Marlanu’ likes this weather.

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I tried a little Spring cleaning in my closet and when I was trying to put the clothes back he wouldn’t let me. So, for an hour or so I let him have his fun. And I had my fun as well. I like taking photos, so what better subject than a fat cat.

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It has begun

The real Winter is here.

It started snowing last night but I wasn’t expecting to find the tress white since it also rained yesterday. Still it is a nice surprise and its a good way to start the week in my opinion.

My mini vacation is over and I start work today.

I’m also expecting an increase in snow related posts on my dash on Facebook and Tumblr. It should be interesting..

 

Adulthood…

Adulthood, if you’re not tired you’re not doing it right.

I don’t know who said this but he was spot on. I’m dead tired so I guess I’m doing pretty good at being an adult.

At least I’m doing good at one thing.

I work. I sleep. I go to university. I help at cleaning the house after the major renovations we had in the last month. What can I say it’s a pleasure to stay awake for more than 24 hours in a row and just work or clean.

But at least, when morning comes I get up to the nicest view ever. Sorry Johnny, but Marlanu’ takes the cake.

Hopefully, they’ll put me on the afternoon shift so I can actually feel that I’m living.

Sunday morning

Its been ages since I had a morning like this one. I can’t even remember the last time I actually had time and energy to just do my thing.

I don’t know if its because of the weather or just my screwed up sleeping pattern but I woke up early, around 4 AM.

I stayed in bed up to 7AM, then I woke up, did some cleaning, shopping, eating and then just took time for myself. And for the first time in months I actually took a real bubble bath. I was sitting then just trying to figure out when was the last time I actually did something like that. I can’t remember!

It’s just sad really, doing so many things and not having time for yourself. Must make a note to myself to include self indulging in my next list.

Until then, I am just going to watch some American Dad and maybe we’ll go to the park and I can take more photos of Autumn.